Regret

Today marks 3 years since I had an abortion. 

I was 20 when I found out I was pregnant. I had just moved in with my boyfriend and we had been together for just over a year. After I told him his first response was 'we cant have a baby'. I was always pro-life and never imagined myself in the position I was in. 

Over the next few weeks we argued constantly over what we were going to do. He basically moved in with his mates and came home on the weekends to get more clean clothes and drop off the dirty ones. I felt I had no choice, keep my baby and become a single mother in a city away from my family or keep my boyfriend. I was 15 weeks when I had my abortion. I went there on my own and it was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. 

At the 1 year mark, my boyfriend and I broke up because he didnt remember. We sorted out our differences and got back together about 4 months later. But again at the 3 year point he has forgotten about it all. I dont understand how he can not realise what today is. I think about it EVERYDAY and everyday I wish I was strong enough to stand up for myself and my child. 

Im so tired of people saying abortion is the easy way out. I live with my decision each and every day and wish I had chosen to have my baby.
secrets88 secrets88
22-25
May 15, 2012