What If.....

Its been 6 years since I had my abortion. At the time I had my abortion I knew that's what I wanted there was really no question about it. I was 19 and knew that it would be a struggle with me not having enough money and I didn't want to be a burden to my mother I knew she would try and help me out but didn't want to put her through that. The guy that I was with we really didn't care or love each other it was something that just happened. To be honest I had no clue that getting pregnant would be an option. I guess that's what happens when your young and clueless, I didn't think about the consequences. What Im struggling with is forgiving myself and just moving on, I tend to think about it alot during the time I had my abortion. I thought I had made peace with it but it sometimes seems to haunt me. I see my friends with their kids and I wonder did i really make the right decision. I even had a couple of friends faced with the same choices and they chose to have their kids. One of my friends is really struggling and im thankful that is not me. In one hand I know I did the right thing for me but I always go back to what if.....
Coco8706 Coco8706
22-25, F
1 Response May 17, 2012

It is not uncommon to have doubts and struggles years after an abortion. Many don't think about it until they have a child later on, or as in your case, see others with children. Time changes things and sometimes when we are young, we can only think about tomorrow and not the fact that we may feel differently in 10 years time. Having a child can be difficult at the time, but 10 years later it doesn't feel that way. So I say to women considering abortion - just remember that you can't change it once you've done it.