3 Years Ago

I regret it every day, but I regret it for my own reasons, the best thing I could have done for that child was what I did do. I was on a lot of medication at the time plus I was doing illegal drugs and drinking. I didn't find out about the baby until 4 weeks before the start of the second trimester. At first I decided to have it, it was what I wanted. Then the father started abusing me, I was informed of the damage I had most likely done to the fetus and everyone around me kept saying have an abortion. Australia (where I live) only just made the 'abortion pill' legal so when I had mine I had the operation. It has been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and I wish so much I didn't but I could never at the time provide for a child who would have had server health problems.
I once was a pro-lifer but how can anyone have an opinion on something so personal that they haven't been through. I now believe in choice because only one person can make that decision.
randomdriftwood randomdriftwood
22-25, F
3 Responses Apr 11, 2007

Marji and musichead and PoeticRejection - Thank you for your words of kindness and wisdom. I appreciate them more then you could know.<br />
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Marji - I am so very sorry to hear of such a painful experiences. I wish you the best in your life.

I know from experience that regret is not something that you can cast away in a matter of days, weeks, or even years. I hope that somewhere down the track you'll be able to fully accept your decision without any doubts or angst. It's clear you've already taken the leading steps by seeing the reasons you wanted to abort, and learning from your experience. It's so true what you said about this being a personal topic - so many ppl purposely disregard the other side too often. I wish you all the luck and hope to keep you going and growing even stronger and wiser.

I am so sorry for your loss. In this case, abortion could have been the right thing to do. Though, do not regret what has been done. I know you must feel guilty, and it must be hard living with this, but it happened, and we all still have you in our hearts. Your decision was made, and it was probably for the best. But, again, I say, do not regret. You had your child's best interests at heart. You thought about doing the right thing and you did what you felt was right. If you felt it was right, then it was right. God bless you, and may you see happier days.