First Abortion At A Young Age
Im glad this site exsists. Ive never said anything about my story to anyone before now . No one really understood and i hope people do now. i had my abortion at age 19. Me and my on again/ off again abusive boyfriend found out i was expecting. We were together only 3 months and were very young and honestly pretty stupid. it was very different from what i was thinking it would be the first time i said i was pregnant. I was not excited..i saw the pos preg sign and immediately started to cry. My bf at the time was very un realiable and irresponsible i couldnt trust him for anything. I told him i was pregnant and was dumped a few weeks later. I knew i couldnt do this on my own and even with him i dont think it would work. I knew i couldnt support a baby or even give it a decent life, So i made that difficult decision. I went to the clinic that day alone...well my best friend at the time was nice enough to drive me even though she didnt agree with what i was doing. I filled out alot of paper work and sat waiting for my turn for hours. While waiting i saw several very young girls in that room..guessing.. 14-16 and they actually asked me how if felt..and if it hurt. I had mixed emotions i wanted to tell them yes it does it hurts like f%^&in hell...emotionally..but physically i felt nothing,,.It really hurt going through that by myself. I got a text later that night from the ex bf asking how it went..knowing dang well he didnt care..he was with his new gf....i really thought at that time of keepin the baby ..so i could keep my ex as a part of my life..but then i thought of how painful and stressful it would be on that child having 2 parents fighing and hating each other ..to me that is not worth it. Having a child i cannot afford, was not ready ford and was not with the right person really hindered my decison. Now 6 years later i never regreat that choice. Yes people still feel the need to give their nasty, rude, one sided opinonion but i never let it bring me down..they do not know what is right for me and i had to make a hard choice and i did. Whats done is done and i will never feel sorry for my choice, i wont lie either. I do think about my "child" once in a great long while and think of how my life would be diff with a 7 year old but i know i made the right choice and no amount of hate and negiativativity will ever change that .