I Already Have 2 Kids, Can I Have An Abortion?I am 29 and I have 2 kids. Both are from 2 different failed relationships, and both fathers are total jerks, with no involvement w the kids. My son was born when I was 23 and 5 years later I had my daughter, just 9 mos ago. My son was from a man that I was with for 9 years, and when he left he wanted nothing to do with either of us, not event the son he had raised for 5 years. He now parties and joined a bad in a different state. The last thing that he ever said to me was, "You can tell him I am dead, at least he had a father for 5 years." Next came along a guy that I was seeing for only 3 mos when I became pregnant w our daughter. I considered not having her, because I could already tell that there was a lot wrong w this guy, and I was finally recovering from my 9 year dysfunctional relationship. I had her, and I love her completely. I stayed w her father on and off while he became abusive, dysfunctional, turns out he was a drug addict and a felon. He ended up stealing all of my $ in my bank account when he got a hold of my new debit card and my hide a key. He has stollen from me, threatened me, he has brought people here to rob me, he is sick! He was in rehab for a while, and after he was released, I had decided to try seeing him again! Big mistake! He robbed me, stole from his own baby, and my son! He is a disgusting person. When I had him arrested, he called me from the police station to yell at me, and blame me! He has never paid child support ever, and never will! Now they are both gone, but turns out that he left me w one more surprise, another pregnancy. I am horrified. I do not know what to do. I feel soooo stupid. I am still very early. I am making an appointment to have an abortion. I became VERY sick during both pregnancies, and now I have a 9 mo old, and emotionally I cannot handle having this baby! IDK if I could even do it! I have decided not to continue w it. I just signed up to finally complete my 4 year degree, I can not do this to myself or my 2 wonderful kids. I feel awful and guilty, but I just can't do this. The responsibility has never and will never be anyone else's. I have never had help other then my family's support. I can't put them through this either. I feel badly about what needs to be done, but it has to be. I never thought that this is how my life would turn out, but it has, and now I want to concentrate on my kids and my future, even thought I feel torn up about this.
I feel badly also because choosing to have my other 2 were the best decisions of my life, but it did complicate my life A LOT. I would not choose anything else for them, but I can not do this alone again.