My Boyfriend Hates My Decision To Abort.
I recently had my late term abortion and I am struggling with my decision. I know it's what was best but my bf makes me feel like I made a terrible mistake choosing abortion. He was supportive throughout the entire pregnancy and wanted me to keep it (so did his family). I loved the fact that he and his family were so supportive but I knew realistically they wouldn't be much help financially if I were to go through with the pregnancy. The emotional support from them was awesome but we all know you can't take care of a baby on emotional support alone...money is what pays the bills. His family kept saying that everything would be ok and work itself out but that wasn't very reassuring especially knowing they weren't going to be able to contribute financially. My parents are more financially blessed than his family but my family did NOT want me to go through with this pregnancy. Since I knew that my main financial support system were my parents I decided to go along with them and end my pregnancy (there were other reasons too but money was the main one). Now I feel like my bf will never forgive me, even though the decision was best for the both of us. I'm trying to finish up my undergrad degree and he recently enrolled into grad school and doesn't work. A baby doesn't fit into either of our plans right now (he knows this but he won't admit it to himself). I feel so alone because he pretends like he doesn't understand why I did it, even though he really does. I'm already struggling with my decision within myself because part of me wanted to keep her. His added disapproval doesn't help. I feel like he and his family were so out of touch and unrealistic about the situation. I'm trying to heal emotionally and they are making it impossible.