I Had An Abortion
I have an appointment scheduled to terminate my pregnancy.
I wish I could tell the whole story but I'm just scared, angry, upset with myself and down.
I wish I could say I knew I was making a good decision, and that I would be okay. I know I am the reason why I'm in this situation.
where I'm from they give you 24 hours after your first visit to go back with an appointment. My appointment is scheduled for this afternoon.
If I continued with this pregnancy, I would be high risk. to the point where there's a chance either I or the child wouldn't make it. I would do 2 injections twice a day as i did with my daughter to sustain the pregnancy, as well as being monitored by 2 physicians every few weeks. My daughter was a twin and after I lost her twin they saw there was a blood clotting disorder that cut off circulation to my childs twin and I miscarried. I fought and prayed for my daughter to be born healthy and happy. and now that I have her.... I don't want to run the risk of placing my health on the line again to bring another child into the world. I love my baby girl so much, and i knew if something happened to me my mother would raise her... I knew that by giving birth to her there was a risk that the condition I have would speed up and I'd get sick but i didn't care. I loved her so much that I fought for her and I didn't care if I died in the process... How fair is it to bring another child in the world if I don't make it to raise them both? How fair would it be to my daughter.... I'm not saying I would never try again, but I wouldn't do it without support.. and if I honestly look around that's something I don' thave right now. I'm not making excuses because in a few hours I will go and terminate this pregnancy..... I will because I think it's the right thing to do for me and my baby girl.
I wish I could tell the whole story but I'm just scared, angry, upset with myself and down.
I wish I could say I knew I was making a good decision, and that I would be okay. I know I am the reason why I'm in this situation.
where I'm from they give you 24 hours after your first visit to go back with an appointment. My appointment is scheduled for this afternoon.
If I continued with this pregnancy, I would be high risk. to the point where there's a chance either I or the child wouldn't make it. I would do 2 injections twice a day as i did with my daughter to sustain the pregnancy, as well as being monitored by 2 physicians every few weeks. My daughter was a twin and after I lost her twin they saw there was a blood clotting disorder that cut off circulation to my childs twin and I miscarried. I fought and prayed for my daughter to be born healthy and happy. and now that I have her.... I don't want to run the risk of placing my health on the line again to bring another child into the world. I love my baby girl so much, and i knew if something happened to me my mother would raise her... I knew that by giving birth to her there was a risk that the condition I have would speed up and I'd get sick but i didn't care. I loved her so much that I fought for her and I didn't care if I died in the process... How fair is it to bring another child in the world if I don't make it to raise them both? How fair would it be to my daughter.... I'm not saying I would never try again, but I wouldn't do it without support.. and if I honestly look around that's something I don' thave right now. I'm not making excuses because in a few hours I will go and terminate this pregnancy..... I will because I think it's the right thing to do for me and my baby girl.
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