It will never go away.Its a harsh reality...but it does get easier. My child would be 4 today if I didn't make the choice I made 4 years ago. But I have my reasons and people have their views. I never talk about it because I know there is absolutely nothing I can do about it now. The best advise is to find happiness in future plans. Doing things like moving forward seem so hard to do. But you have to proove to yourself that the choice you made was a learning curve and finding you learned from your mistake. Will it happen again? And next time what are you going to do? But whatever you do make SURE its what you really want...and think of the cause and effect of your decision. If I do this, then that will happen. What happened hun is not easy to deal with but moving onward is a good start.