Severe Depression.. Trapped In Life

Abortion is hardest when you do it against your better judgement. You are also not alone in trying to get pregnant again after the procedure. It seems like the mind somehow equates another pregnancy with a second chance, even if logically you know it would put you right back into the position that led up to the first abortion.

If you can, try reminding yourself that another pregnancy won't undo the abortion and that having a child, no matter how much you may love him or her, will make you forget any regrets you may have now- in fact, it will only put him/her in an unfair position if you use the pregnancy as a crutch and are not mentally healthy enough to care for him/her.

There is no way to undo an abortion- the only way to alleviate the regret you feel will to be to come to terms with what happened and make peace with it. Some people are able to do it through religious means, by talking in a group or getting counseling, etc.

I hope you'll consider counseling if you're feeling suicidal. Like I said, there is no a life for a life to make things okay if you feel regret. The best thing you can do in memory is live your life to the fullest so that it wasn't in vain. :) I know that can be hard if your family isn't the most supportive. Forgive them for not being understanding and forgive yourself if you feel it was a wrong choice. That's where the healing truly starts.

@ EP User and Desperate10 - If you are suicidal, you need to see a psychiatrist and get on medication. I, myself, take medication for suicidal ideation, which is the medical term for being suicidal. I am Never suicidal anymore because the medication helps tremendously. Call a doctor today! It will help you stop living in the depth of pain you are currently in.

I had an abortion too years ago and I still regret mine, but there is healing. I no longer cringe when I hear the abortion word or when I see someone else pregnant. I've forgiven myself and I know that my baby girl is in Heaven being held and adored, living with great joy.

It is somewhat common for some women to want to have a baby after they had an abortion. So you are not crazy or weird. BUT now is not the time. Get yourself some help, get better and stronger, place yourself in a positive position financially, emotionally, and with a good partner, then get pregnant.

If you are interested in hearing more in how I healed, private message me. I cannot access your profile to private message you first.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," Says the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." xx

I understand your pain. This time last year I fell pregnant and 7 weeks later I had an abortion. Not a day goes by that I don't regret my decision. I feel an enormous amount of guilt and would do anything to change what happened. I punish myself everyday trying to make up for what I have done. Battling everyday with an eating disorder and depression. It's too hard to work through my problems with no support. My family has no idea what I've done. I'm trying to pretend that nothing has happened and live a normal life but its impossible. Some days I wish I'd just fall asleep and not wake up.