By: An EP User
Written on February 13th, 2013
I recently just had an abortion. To be honest I'm only 16 I messed up and got pregant, the guy I was with I'm still with and now engaged to. My story is a little different. We tool the pregnancy test together and it came out positive. We were both so excited he started crying because he was so excited to be a father.( he is also 19 ). I absoulutly loved being pregnant but at the end of the day I had to face my parents. The problem was, i am adopted by my real dads parents. They took my 15 year old mom in when she was pregnant with me. Long story after that well before she found out me and and him had decided on an abortion do to my age and my family Etc. When she found out she pretty much disowned me and left me no choice but an abortion. I was not aloud to see him again, so I had no support. I found a way to talk to him. Now it's been a week after my abortion and I just can't believe what I have done. I loved that baby so much. And I feel so alone and scared. I have no one to talk to. I feel like the biggest piece of crap out there. I just want to die it hurts so bad! I'm only hanging on for my fiancé. But I don't know how much longer I can do that. I'm awake all night crying I try to sleep during the day but I just don't know what to do. And I can't leave my room so there's no " getting out " to take my mind off of things she won't get me the counseling. I just don't know what else to do. Please don't judge me I made a mistake I understand that but I really need help.