I'm Still Not Over It

I had an abortion nearly two years ago. I was 7 weeks pregnant at the time. It would have been my first child. My partner said he'd stand by me whatever I decided but I felt I was too young and too unprepared to be a mother. Nearly two years on I still find it hard to cope with it. There are so many things which remind me of it, and I don't know that I'll ever be 100% ok with what I did.

Shiveringisles Shiveringisles
22-25, F
6 Responses Feb 13, 2009

I know exactley how you feel!! Take care xx

its natural to feel guilty because abortion is a very bad thing. other people will try to console you but the truth is you lost a child and it will never come back.<br />
someday , when you will have a husband and children the memory will fade and you will be too busy to think about it. just take care and use protection , cause when it happens again its very sad.

*hug*

Hi. I'm sorry you are hurting. I wish you the best.

Thank you for you comments. I don't expect to ever be over it 100% but I have days when I cry uncontrollably for hours. I just find it so hard sometimes. I guess the doctors should emphasise how much it will effect you rather than implying you'll be fine and physical pain is the only thing you'll have to deal with.

I'm a guy have no right to say "I feel for your loss" or anything even close to that, but...**** what do I say? Ummm...I hope the coping gets better? <br />
Hell I'm just gonna go now, good luck to you.