I had an abortion a few weeks ago, I was 11 weeks and 1 day. I am also 18 years old... through out my 11 weeks with my baby, I grew attached and I was ready and excited. my boyfriend, was a different story, he seemed excited but he was not ready in the slightest way, he wanted to get college done before we start our family, so for him... I gave up the baby. I didn't feel right making the appointment, I didn't feel right going into the place, and when I saw the ultrasound, I lost it and tried talking my boyfriend out of this choice... I had the procedure done and from that moment on I have not been the same.... I want a baby, and I want my family... for me I feel like this is what god wants for me.. I think I am meant to be an early mother. because I need something that's mine and that I love and that no one can take from me. I am constantly reminded of babys everywhere and it just breaks me down. I think about my baby every minute of every day, and I would do anything to bring it back.
onelove654 onelove654
18-21, F
6 Responses Aug 17, 2014

I would kill for my baby to be back. She would have been here by now. I had my abortion in January and it has haunted me everyday. But honestly little by little I've slowly started to cry less. But all I want is her back. Or to be pregnant again and make the right choice. If you need to talk I'm here. I'm in the same boat as you

Same for me. I was 6weeks 6days and I had a miscarriage last year with my boyfriend of 3yrs. So this time around I was excited to get pregnant again I wanted a baby for so long. That's all I wanted and the first thing he said was get it aborted. We fought for a day I did not want this but I knew I didn't want to raise a baby without a father in their lives and didn't want to do this by myself. His parents pressured me into this and I regret it. I want my baby back sooo bad!! I'll do anything to have the morning sickness and cravings. I want my baby!! :( I feel differently towards my boyfriend I feel disgust and hatred. He wants to wait 2yrs to start a family. He's 24 and I'm 22. He graduated from college this year and waiting to hear back from a couple jobs. My body feels different I'm afraid I won't be able to have babies anymore that they did something wrong. I will never get over this I cry all day everyday. I feel so depressed. Does this pain ever go away? 😔

we are going through a lot of the same things! get ahold of me!! please!

I feel the same way. My boyfriend and I have been together for nearly 6 years and after I had the abortion (which he pressured me into) I Couldn't look at him. I couldn't justify having sex with him. I couldn't even look at him without being reminded of it. I had my abortion in January. And just the other day it is kind of starting to get better. Talk to him, it's hard for a while and it's still hard now for me but it's slowly getting better little by little

Darling, you poor thing. I am so sorry for what you have been through. I have been there. I had an abortion when I was 20. I was a mess at the time, and for a good year after that. I am now 22 and have a beautiful darling little one year old boy. Your time will come. It is a dark dark place but there is light at the end of the road. Best wishes on your healing x

I'm so sorry for your loss :(. Try to use your story to help young mothers make the decision to keep their baby. You will be a great mom someday.

I'm sorry for what you've gone through. Next time, don't let ANYONE get in the way of your child. You're going to be a great mother one day, but an even better one as long you know and remember that your child always comes first, regardless of what your boyfriend wants.

Sweetheart, this post has touched me. I'm 31 and I had an abortion at 16, I went through it all on my own. Nobody knew. You'll never forget it but you will move on and you will have a baby eventually which you will love and cherish forever. Untill then...be kind to yourself and forgive yourself 💜