Im Not Ashamed

I was 19 when i found out i was pregnant, i had only been with my boyfriend around 3 months. I decided straight away that an abortion was the best thing for me, I didnt have a stable relationship and i still lived at home with my parents.

My boyfriend promised me that he would be there for me, then 2 days before I had the abortion I got a text saying 'we should just be friends'. I had no support from him, he just didnt care at all. The next week I saw him with another girl and I went crazy! I had a total breakdown, for months I would go out and get drunk just to forget about what happenned, all I wanted was my old normal life back! My friends were the only people I could tell, I didnt want any of my family to be disappointed with me.

A year and a half on, I have a new boyfirend who loves me. He knows about everything that happened. I still think about what happened sometimes, and I do get down about it, but he is always there for me.

I do have regrets about what I did, the constant wondering of what it would have been like to be a mum, and what my baby would have looked like. But I know now that it was the right thing for me to do.

blondeprincess09 blondeprincess09
18-21, F
1 Response Sep 2, 2009

*hugs* Thanks for sharing your story.