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Just Took The Abortion Pill

I barely know what to say or how to start, but I'm grateful there's a place I can write about this, because I can't on my Facebook or public blog.

Anyway, the pain from the cramping after those four pills dissolved in my mouth was excruciating, and I kept vomiting and vomiting. Basically, I thought I'd die, but thank god a roommate of mine had taken the pill too, and she said "once you start bleeding, the pain will decrease drastically."

She was right.  About ten minutes later...approximately an hour and a half or two hours after I dissolved the pills in my mouth, the bleeding started and the cramps just turned into BAD cramps that I would experience during a regular period.

HERE'S WHERE I SCREWED UP:  I didn't take the Tylenol Codeine that the clinic was SUPPOSED to give me.  I was hesitant because I'm an ex-alcoholic, sober now, who didn't want to play around with anything narcotic.  Well, I'm a fool.  If you are about to do this, just make sure you have heavy-duty pain meds, and if you're sober, just have someone else administer them to you.

Anyhoodle, once the tissue started passing, I felt much much better.

But I'm screwing around online looking for images of 6 1/2 week year-old fetuses...which is how far along I was, out of morbid and masochistic curiosity.

Truth is, I'm a total pro-choice feminist, but it still leaves me with sadness to reflect on the loss of a potential baby.  I can't help it.  But that's the thing...I don't think anyone is "Pro-Abortion" per se, we're just pro-doing what's best for the woman.  There's NO WAY I could take care of a child, OR even weather a pregnancy!

I'm single, 31, newly sober, and just trying to get my life together.  If I had all the money in the world, a plush life, didn't have to work, and had health insurance and yada yada, sure!  I'd have gone through with the pregnancy.

It was painful, a hard choice to make, but it was worth it in the end.  I just didn't want to bring a kid into this world I couldn't care for...and then pawn it off to other people.  That would wound it too.  Well, in my opinion anyway.

What a mess.  But thankfully, I had a choice.  And, though I'm not thrilled about the whole process, though I'm not "happy" about it, I don't regret it at all.

alizarin alizarin 31-35, F 131 Responses Jan 23, 2010

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Okay ladies, I know every woman's body is different but, it is crucial you follow the doctor's instructions as best as possible. If you don't understand or are unsure, reread and reread what's on paper. Listen to the doctor. It is very important and it will help you get through it with, hopefully, not a lot of pain. Anyway, I had a medical abortion about 4 years ago. I am now 24. My reasons are my business. I won't judge you, don't judge me. **** happens. So, as i was saying, I did my research and did everything the doctor told me. As best as possible. My periods are always regular and I never cramp. When you take the 4 pills, make sure to take the pain killers they give you. Idk if that helped or not or if it was just my body, but I didn't feel much pain. I bled a lot, but no pain, just a lot of pressure. I was prescribed anti nausea medication but made the mistake of not taking then. It wasn't a big deal. I threw up once. Just a little, it could have been from the car drive. I can't know for sure. So anyway, it wasn't a bad experience for me. Not physically, that is. I bled for a few weeks but after that, my periods went back to normal. To any other woman out there, good luck and you are not alone.

i am getting the first day abortion pill tomorrow ( 4 pills saturday) i am having anxiety over it , reading the horror stories lol, but i went through labor and felt PAINFUL contractions right before my epidural , it cant be worse than that right? i just hate pain, but i am going to make sure to take the pain meds they give me . ah i am just so scared

You will get through it :) good luck

ok so it went very well , i took one vicodin a hour before the 4 pills ( cheek) , and i had no pain like the other women experienced, just some normal period cramps, i think bled kinda heavily but it slowed down after a while , i hope its normal, i dont think i went over the 2 soaked pads :/ i feel tired

Why didnt u use protectuon in the first place if u r responsible??

Hi, I'm 17 years old and was about 7 weeks pregnant. I went to the clinic yesterday and took the first pill. Then last night took the antibiotic. I took Tylenol and a different pain medication before taking the 4 pills that dissolve in my mouth. Right after the pills dissolved I was in excruciating pain. I threw up and believed I was going to die. I was given a painkiller and after about half an hour of the worst pain I ever felt I took the painkiller and started bleeding. After large blood clots came out I started to feel a bit better. Now as of this moment I am in pain but I get breaks in between. This sucks !

Hi ladies. I wanted to share my experience with anyone who's considering taking the pill, incase youre scared or nervous. I was super scared. For me, turns out there is nothing to be afraid of.

So Im 19. When I was pregnant I just knew. So I took 2 tests- of course both positive. Went to the Drs. found out I was 3/4 weeks pregnant. I made an appointment at planned parenthood the day after cause I knew there would be a long wait. there was, a week & a half. So I decided I could make up my mind by then. Which I did. I wasn't going to keep the baby as sad as it is for me it was the right thing to do.

What I wasn't sure was how I was going to do it, surgical or pill. With the surgical everything is kind of over with within 10 minutes they said, but I just didn't want any more odd things up there than I've had. (had two vaginal ultrasounds-one that day) I've already spent 2 hours at the doctor and just wanted to go home. And it seemed w bit scarier to me. So I decided the pill.

I took one pill at the Drs. went home and was fine, 24 hours later I was home and took the antibiotic & nausea pill with a meal an hour before I took the 4 pills to finish the abortions. I between that hour I took one painkiller that they gave me. (so a half hour after the antibiotics & nausea pill) Then I let the four pills soak in my checks for 30 mins. That was the gross part, I cold feel them dissolving in my mouth. I couldn't taste it until the 30 mins was up and I had to swallow them with water. I had a feeling I was going to puke, which I did about 5 mins later. I only had to go to the bathroom to puke once, but while I was in there for a couple mins I puked 4-5 times. It wasn't fun but I could handle it and it was over fast.

After that, it took maybe 30-60 mins for me to start bleeding. it was light on the pad then when Id go to the bathroom a good amount of blood would come out. about 2 hours after I swallowed the four pills I felt a bigger/biggest blood clot I had come out. I knew what that was.. it stayed in the shape when it hit the water. I saw it for a second and had to flush immediately cause I couldn't bear to look at it. The one and only "clot" I had like that. I have to say that was very traumatizing cause I could feel and see it. That made me pretty upset. So I got pretty tired out soon after that and went to bed. I did wake up in the middle of the night with blood that went past the pad just a bit so I cleaned myself up and went back to bed.

Ever since then (yesterday) it's pretty light blood, most comes out when I go to the bathroom.

As for physical pain- It was probably less than my average period cramps for me. Maybe because I was medicated the whole time? But it was not bad at all and I anticipated it to be a lot worse. So try not to be afraid.

The only thing that got to me through out the whole thing was the "thing" coming out.

Also I only took one pain pill they gave me, after that it's just been Advil.

Sorry if I missed anything, got to graphic or spelled something wrong. But I just want to reassure people that they can do this. It may not be easy or clean, but you can do this. And whatever choice YOU decide, is right because it's you're life!

Good luck anyone and everyone. If you have any questions I will try to answer them the best I can!

I took the abortion pill a few weeks ago and I want to put you all at ease. I was 4 weeks pregnant (max) and I'm a college student and could not afford a child right now nor do I want one right now. So, I made my appointment. The first appointment, they took vitals and did a "counseling" to make sure this is what I wanted. The second appointment, I took the first pill and, 24 hours later, I took the second dose. The only bad experience I had was about 5 minutes after swallowing the pills, I projectile vomited everywhere. I started bleeding almost immediately. It was not bad. It was pretty much the same as a period. I had one blood clot the size of a quarter and that was really it. I bled sort of heavy for a few days, but almost completely stopped bleeding at about 1 week. I stopped spotting at about 1.5 weeks. It was not gory nor was it scary or painful. I slept through nearly all of it. I go back in a few days for my follow up and I'm assuming all will go well. If you have any questions feel free to message me!

Oh my, I'm so happy I found this blog; I have 2 daughters already and just found out I'm pregnant again. I had lots of complication with both pregnancy before, I actually died and was brought back to life; so I've decided to termanate this pregnancy and I've been terrified, this post help me so much and made me feel so much more at ease with my decision, thank you all so much, I'm literally tearing up right now due to the relife I feel and that I'm not alone, my husband feels like it's a no brainier decision due to what happened with my last pregnancy but doesn't understand my fear. Thank you all so much.

I'm 21 and already had an abortion last year it was the most painful experience I had ever had in my life I was sick and it took over my whole body I was in pain probably the whole day, now again I have just fount out I'm pregnant again, I'm in a happy relationship but I work and I go to university my boyfriend also wishes to go to uni next year, we don't have a house there is no way I can give a child the best start in life until i have a full time job, I am just terrified of going through the same procedure because it's haunted me since my last abortion help?

U make me sick, u r using abortion as a cintraseptives...take a pill and dont be so proud that u r an abortionist expert

Thank you for your stories. I am 24 I have two kids and I am 6 weeks pregnant. I had an affair and I'm not sure who fathered the pregnancy. I don't know why I did it and it pains me to know that this might not be my husbands child. I am making the choice to have the pill abortion. It's one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make. My heart is broken but I am putting the needs of my children and my husband before my own conscience. I will be taking the pill on Monday and after reading your stories I feel much more confident that I made the right choice.

I took the abortion pill yesterday. I thought it was gonna be the worst experience after reading countless horror stories online beforehand. This particular post is one that I originally read that countered the fear that other posts gave me. I'd really like to thank the woman that wrote this, it helped me.
I didn't throw up. The cramps are bad, worse than a period, but not something I couldn't handle. I didn't bleed as much as I thought I would. I never threw up. I'm still bleeding whenever I pee. Overall, at least for me, this was not a horror story, just a bad experience that I wish I never had to go through. I posted my entire experience on this forum quite extensively. Good luck to anyone who goes through this. It will all be okay.

If you would like another (long) account of the abortion pill here's the link to my experience.

the pill is very effective but the cramps is very painful . True talk once you start bleeding the pain slows down, no joke prepare yourself for non-stop cramps , laying on my stomach helped and moving side to side, also helps. i took 4 ibuprofen; the pain is crazily painful for about 1hr or2hr depends on your body .i did throw up but it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be .

Hi am 19 I already have two girls by a different guy idk if I want to keep this baby I've read a lot of bad reviews on the pill abortion . But am afraid to do the surgical am against abortion but theirs no way for me to keep it. Am afraid to go to hell for doing it but I can't keep it what do I do? Help please

I Had an abortion on sunday and it is now one week after and I am still feeling nauseous I'm bleeding lighter but was worried about the nausea and my breast still hurt

I am 25 ... Just had my second baby on dec 23 but because she was breech i had to have a c-section....after a week were free to go home but the next day i ended back in the hospital i was bleeding out the dr. Who released me never checked me and didnt notice so i had to stay another two weeks with blood transfusions and antibiotics aftet an infection i caught... It was horrible and well i was told that due to my complications my wall was weak and any pregnancy that happend before 2-3yrs from my c-section could rupture my wound. I found out i am about 6wks terrified because i cant think of killing my baby but i cant imagine leaving my 2girls without a mother .....i have an appt to get the abortion pill but i feel soooo guilty if my health were not an issue i wouldnt even think of not having this angel but i cant leave the two girls i already have behind....either choice seem so selfish to me and the guilt is eating away at me with every minute that passes husband trys to understand but i dont feel he does and i have noone else to talk to i just feel like a horrible human being.....

I took the pill yesterday and the second pills today and have been so terribly sick! I have thrown up every time I have taken a pill. After taking the antibiotic pill last night I started vomiting and didn't stop for hours. Today has been rough but for now I think the vomiting as ceased. The cramps are bad but I'll take that over throwing up. My throat is so sore from all of the stomach acid. Unfortunately this is my second abortion and for the first one I waited too late to make a decision and had to so a surgical abortion. I had such an easy experience with that I wish more than anything I had just done that again. But I thought the pill would be a more humane way to..end things. Though that might be true I advise everyone out there to choose a surgical abortion. Once it's over it's over. I had no pain after and felt completely like my old self again. I'm just scared now of how long this bleeding and cramping will continue.

I'm sorry that you felt like you had to do this.. I was 12 weeks pregnant and started having vaginal bleeding.. So I went to the doctor and they did an ultrasound and my baby no longer had a heartbeat. It was measuring at 8-9 weeks.. I had two options..?surgery or the pill... I chose the pill because I never had surgery. They prescribed me 20 7.5 Norcos. The pain was unbearable and I too thought I was dying.. The pain medicine did not help me one bit. Almost a week later and I am still having some cramps..they're no longer unbearable though.. I am Not trying to offend you but I don't understand why someone would intentionally put themselves through that. Some people use an abortion as birth control.. I'm probably a little more sensitive about it because I was forced to do it. I had no choice.

Sorry about your experience. I hope you grieve fully, cry, talk, write, etc. And then move on and are healthy. Best to you.

many of those photos r fake if its upseting you go read from real medical sources on fetal development 6weeks is practically nothing, stay strong<3

I'm 26 years old and already have my child. I found out that I'm pregnant and I never thought I would do this but I'm ending the pregnancy Thursday before work. And my mom will hopefully watch my daughter this weekend so she won't know. I can't let my family know and I'm scared. I know in my heart it's the right thing. I feel guilty. But I don't feel guilty about doing this I feel guilty for not feeling bad. That I'm the worst person in the world cause I don't feel bad about my decision if that makes sense. I am worried about how much pain I'll be in (I still have to work) if anyone has any words of advice I would be grateful. I'm not changing my mind though I know it's the best

Hi. I'm 17, just found out last week I'm pregnant. Went to the clinic and they gave me a test and it was positive. I knew I was pregnant the moment it happened, he didn't want to use a condom so I caved in and that one time really got me. I feel disgusting. I'm the girl most likely to not get pregnant. But here I am, so I have been going through hell since before the test and now after. I'm 5 weeks and five days as of today. Had my ultrasound (notfun) so I'm choosing to do the abortion pills. This pregnancy is already killing me. I'm so tired, back hurts, cramps & pain, nausea, and I am a *****! Can't take it. So I'm going in Monday to take the first pill. No one but me and the ex bf now knows. It's honestly the hardest and most stressful thing to do especially at my age. Hopefully I will be ok

Get the copper IUD even if they tell u that u can't cuz you haven't had any kids yet just keep on insisting, its tiny hormone free, plus it can b inside u for 10 to 12 years, and can simply b removed, worry free!!

I had the copper Iud for a month and became pregnant.

just remember it is not sentient dont listen to any anti choice lies, feel free to check out you can msg for support of just look & see you arent alone <3

hey.. actually i dont know that im pregnant..! but i had an intercouse with my guy last month.. n i havent got my periods yet.. its almost 23 days.! my guy is forcing me to take the abortion pill tablet..!! can i take it without knowing that im pregnant? is it safe?

Never do something that dangerous without consulting a professional you need to see a doctor first because its more then jus 1 pill you have to take 5 pills im doing it now as we speak im 4 weeks and 5 days pregnant and yesterday i took the first pill to stop growth this early am i took 2 pills which i had to place in my cheeks untill they disolve for an half hour your gonna need pain meds too tomoro i have to repeat again so its a process.

first if you do not want to abort then dont, self doubt leaves you open for anti choicers to bully you & could lead to regret, you need to decide for you, no one else. also they shouldnt even give you the tablet unless you have done a test first but you certainly need to do one even if for w.e. reason you some how got the pill without doing the test.

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Well im glad im not alone on this.. I just found out yesterday that im pregnant.. so im going through all this in the internet hoping I find something that will help me. My mind is set to having an abortion, I just felt so alone on it. And for the same reason as many of you out there im 26 married and a mother of four kids 11, 6, 4, and 1. Currently going to school, I just cant have another baby right now.. its to hard in everyway. Hopefully the pill is the right decision im scared but I know that right now this is the right decision for me..

What did you end up doing? Did it all work out as you planned? Do you feel better?

I have an appointment for pill in 5 days and I don't know if I'm gonna be able to do it. I am one of those people against abortion but being 28 years old with three kids already, and one is 6, one is 2 and one is only 1...I'm just not emotionally nor physically ready to bring one more baby....but when I start thinking about I start crying and don't know how will this end....So God Help Me.

@Dana1515, view all of your options carefully. Being that you are against abortions, might make it more difficult. So take some time to yourself and be sure. I was against abortions once too. But it was the right decision.

i'm in the same point Dana1515, just found out i'm pregnant an have 4 kids 11, 9, 7, 5 two boys an two girls, was on the pill for the last 6 years an kept forgetting these past few months with being stressed an now i'm expecting an my husband an i have agree to take the pill, i have an appt jan 16 an i just tell my self yea i will be hurting but i have to think of the kids i have now...can't afford to start over at all...i never thought id be in this situation but no one god bless u an i pray everything goes good for the both of us.

Hi seems I'm on the same boat as you only I have an 8 year old and my youngest just turned 5 months yesterday, and I have a six year old and a two year old, neither nor my bf work, I'm heartbroken though but just not financially nor phisically ready, I'm 8 wks prg, I'm so tired all the time and feel so lazy as well as gained ssoo much weight already, but I just can't keep this baby as much as we both would like to. I'm sched. For the 19th for the pill.

I just found out I'm pregnant. I'm 25, no kids, finishing my first year back at college, living at my grandparents house. I work part time and my grandparents help me out a ton financially because I am in school full time. The father is my on/off again boyfriend of 5 years and he is 26. I have an appt for the pill in 5 days as well. I am so torn. My heart is saying one thing and my head is saying another. I know it would be so hard to take care of a baby right now but it would be so worth it because or that love. I know the father and I would do everything we could to take care of it. We would hopefully move in together before it came but both of us aren't in the greatest place financially. He works full time but it's commission so income isn't consistent. I would work as much as I could before to save. I wouldn't be able to go back to school next semester tho. And that's hard because my grandparents want me to finish so bad. School is extremely important to me, I am a 4.0 student that busts my *** to maintain that. I know that if I have a baby it doesn't make it impossible to go to school. A ton of people do it. And besides school, there are millions of people who are in worse situations than I am, and make it work. So I know that we could. We both come from great families that would always be there for us. But I want to do it on my own as much as I could, especially financially. I know it's not the ideal situation but almost every kid in my family wasn't conceived and born in an ideal situation. I'm scared of how I will feel if I go through with the abortion. My heart is already broken now and it hasn't even happened yet. I know it will save me a lot of grief and hardships but grief is different than grieving and heartache. I'm just curious how you are feeling after doing it? How did you grieve? Are you doing okay?

Against abortion? Yet you're considering doing it. You all are such judgmental hypocrites. You disapprove and are against it, yet when it happens to you, its okay. Gtf outta here. Stop judging one another and mind your own business.

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I found out I was pregnant a few days ago and decided then tht I couldn't keep it. The father of the baby hates the fact tht I want to get rid of it, it just isn't the right thing for me right now. Maybe I'm being selfish but I feel like I'm doing what's best for me. My appointment is January 10, 3 days after my 24th birthday. I'm about to graduate from college and there is so much ahead of me. I was against it but I knew tht I'd I ever find myself in this predicament, I knew what I'd have to do.

I think you did the right thing :)

I just found out I'm 6 weeks pregnant. I called the local planned parenthood and set up an appointment for the abortion pill. I go in New Year's Eve. I've never thought I'd have to do something I was so against, but the truth is you never know until it happens to you. I'm 24 with two daughters under the age of 6 and the father of my daughters and I are barley making it day by day. I wish I can keep this baby but it in the long run it would be unfair to it because I know I can't give my all to it like it deserves.

I was your age when I had my abortion. I had my abortion January 2nd, 2008.

I was also against. So I can relate

Where did you get the pills?

Today is the day I go to the clinic to get the pills. I've never thought I would be in this situation. I have three kids and adding another would not make the situation any better. At first I was against abortions but I learned you Can not judge people if you haven't walked in there shoes. I hope I'm making the right decision. I am not with my childrens father because he had an affair, so it is not a right time to bring a baby to this very messed up situation.

How's it going?! what are you feeling? I had the pills to, if you need anything message me.

I'm doing ok. I went to the clinic and they told me I was to early yo see. I have to go this sat. I just want this to be over. I keep going through mixed emotions...but I know this is the best desision at this time. Thanks for caring! Xoxi

I am a 21 yr old single girl,live in india, i had intercourse with my intimate partner for less than 45 sec, he ********** outside my vagina but i m afraid if there are any chances of pregnancy. Can you please suggest me any medicine if in case i am pregnant.

well.. i dont think you could be pregnant this time, when are you suppossed to have your period?

add me mommy i am an adult baby with 2 mommies who are pregnant and are smokers they are lovers the best mommies in the world. i take care of my 2 mommies who are lovers and plan to be married and they promise to baby me and treat me like a baby i love my mommies look at my mommies pregnant bump in my photos my mommies diaper me bottle feed me and control me

I'm going to keep this short (in the hopes of truly helping another person who may just need to know they're not going crazy).
I was 7 weeks pregnant. Went to the clinic (Saturday) and took the first (of 5 pills) at noon. I was instructed to begin my antibiotics that night, and take the 4 (main) pills at noon on Sunday. After about 45 minutes, I drank some water to dissolve the rest of the pills (as instructed) and waited. About 90 minutes I began to cramp and was tired (normal for me while on my period). Exactly 5 hours after the pills dissolved I felt a "gush" and ran to the bathroom. I completely soaked through a pad, and replaced it. 15 minutes after that I soaked through another pad. This kinda freaked me out (because on the instruction it said to call if you soak 2 pads in 2 hours). So I called... they told me it was natural and try to relax. I sat back on the couch, and about 20 minutes later felt anouther "gush".. and ran to the rest room. At this point I decided to just sit on the toilet and wait it out. My heart was dropping at the sounds of the blood clots coming out. I started to cry because I think the amount and sounds were just surreal. The bleeding pretty much continued for 3-4 hours in total, then subsided to a normal period. I bled for the entire week after, pretty much without break. My 1 week check up was fine.

My suggestion is to stay close by, or stay on the toilet after about the 5 hour mark. I wasn't prepared (not even with a large, "super" maxi-pad). This could have been extremely embarassing and a horrifying experience, coupled with the emotional trauma.