Mixed EmotionsIm new here....forgive me if ive posted in the wrong section......my story could fit in a number of places. I really just need to get things off my chest as this kind of thing is not the stuff you can share with just anyone.
Just over 5 years ago i got friendly with a man online who made me laugh and we seemed to have a lot in common. we met up and hit it off really well. He made a pass at me that 1st time, but I told him I wasnt interested in any sort of affair as we were both married. But...from then on i couldnt get him off my mind. he began to ring me regularly and we flirted, i guess i just found it flattering. Anyway...we met again and I fell for him big time. within weeks he was telling me he loved me......but we were rarely able to meet up because of our work commitments.
This continued for about 2 years, even after my hubby found out and i promised to sever contact. We did for a while, then he began to badger my best friend saying he needed me in his life and gulible me got back in touch. About 2 years ago, he cooled right off and even began to get nasty with me on the phone. He wouldnt come and see me but said he didnt want to finish things. He then stopped calling. After a few weeks i contacted him and he admitted what i had feared...he had met someone else....he had even left his wife!! I was gutted.....so much so i fell ill and ended up in councilling. Then....one day I bumped into him whilst out shopping. he said he was back with his wife (he was shopping with her) The next day he began to text and call again...and we carried on speaking most days again.
Trying to cut a long story short, couple of months ago, hubby found out i was back in touch with the man and not surprisingly was livid. This time, I did end things and had no more contact with the man.....but i still think of him constantly.
I was totally infatuated with this man...lord knows why in truth......and although the sexual attraction was there, we never had a physical relationship.
This week, I have found out he actually left his wife more than two years ago, and has been with new woman ever since! Im crushed! He didnt tell me any of this...telling me he was back home!
Im desperate to contact him now and talk to him, although I know I wont gain anything by doing so.
I dont think I shall ever get over him.....or get my head around why he lied like he did.xx