Moving On?

I still can't believe how much happended in the past month. Things are slowly getting better.  I sleep better at night and don't dream of him anymore.  I think less of him during the day.  A sign that my sanity is returning?  I'm not angry anymore.  I have to believe he has his reasons why he did the things he did, as I had mine.  I did get hurt and I probably deserve it for having an affair with a married man. I can now remember the good times without crying all the time.  Luckily for me, I havent seen him anywhere.  I don't think i'm ready to handle it yet.  I still care for him, don't know if that will ever change.
But I won't get back together...ever.  Thinking of the relationship now, I realise that there was no future for us, even if he did love me.  He would never leave his wife and would I try to build a future with him if I hurt his wife and kids.
I have a lot of regrets.  He hurt me so much and he said so many hurtful things. But I try not to think of it. Isn't there a song that says": goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend..
dv1975 dv1975
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3 Responses May 7, 2012

I know that feeling.. All well

We can do it - we can move on!

good for you that you are moving on.