How Do I Get Over An Affair When I Never Wanted It to End?
well I have been married for one year now and my husband and I have one son together he is 22months. I met a man at my daycare providers house. He is her brother inlaw. We started texting alittle and he messaged my on my myspace page and then thats when it all started. He would go over to the babysitters to see me and hang out with my while i was there. His sister inlaw started to suspect things and so we had to mellow it out. We started finding other ways to see eachother and talk to eachother. we texted all day long and would talk late at night. I would go to his house on tuesday mornings. I could only go to his house on certin days and times because he lived with his other brother. We had sex and it was so great. He made me feel so wonderful and i could be myself with him. I enojoyed every second i spent with him. It got to the point recently were i really wanted to be with him more and we couldn't because people may see us. It got really hard for the both of us. So we decided to end the relationship. I didn't want to, but it really was starting to get hard. I still care alot about him and I know he cares alot about me because he still calls me and texts me. I told my husband about me seeing someone else but not that we had sex. He doesn't want to end our marriage at all, but i'm not sure if i want to be with him anymore. Should I get over this guy and fix my marriage or should I follow my gut and end it and be with this guy? If i leave i will have nothing no place to live or anything... I don't know what to do?????