Holidays

One of the major downsides to falling in love with the man you are involved in an affiar with is the lack of being able to celebrate holidays and major life accomplishments with them. Sure we do what we can to alleviate the pain that comes with this issue, but the issue is still there.
Last week I found myself on a"business trip" in his hometown. That alone took some planning. I spent weeks finding a reason to be there, making reservations, invisioning the perfect "Valentine's " date with him (despite the fact we are both married and I knew we couldn't risk going out in public) I dreamed and fantasized of walking out in public and simply holding his hand.( being shown off, in turn
showing him off)
As you guessed...my fantasy did not come true...we spent the night watching TV, talking over wine and making love in a hotel room....
While I dreamed of being whisked away off into the sunset and shared these desires with him, he held me close and reminded me of
his love and desire to be wi
th me. Say what you may...I still love him and believe the best...living life and loving to the fullest I know how....only time will tell where he and I will land....hoping for together. ;)