I Had An Affair
I am in a similar position. I am young and so is my husband. We both are EXCELLENT companions. However, sex and passion on my end has always been lacking. He has never complained, but I have always expressed my need for more sex. I love him very much, but since we have not been very intimate, I now don't think I see him as romantically anymore. It makes me sad, because I had such hopes for our marriage. I had an affair and now am in love with him. He is evrything I have been looking for, but feel immense guilt and have not left my husband and ended the affair. My lover and I have reconnected after six months and want to get together, but am not sure if I should. I dont know what to do. In one year, I have had sex twice and previous to that maybe like 6 times. I want to feel loved and desired, but dont. My husband loves me, but is not passionate. He travels a lot and financial security is very important to him. I really just want intimacy and would give a very modest life for that. I dont need the material gains. What should I do. I have recently been offered a position out of the country where I can reunite with my lover, but am getting cold feet. I dont want a marriage where I feel I have to have affairs to feel fulfilled. I am afraid that is what will happen. I feel fulfilled with my lover, but guilt for feeling so good. PLEASE HELP. A decision must be made. I can choose to stay with my husband and hope we can gain some passion. Or leave the country and start fresh with someone I love and share values and passion with.