He Won't Give UpHe was my first love, we were together off and on for 5 years and he cheated, lied, and neglected me. I went through so much heartbreak before I finally hardened my heart towards him. Now for the past couple years he has been desperately trying to get me back. He is really laying on the pressure recently.. He tries to offering me a better life, the exact life I hoped for back when I still wanted things to work with us; and he threatens that he will throw his life away and that he is worried he will slip deeper into depression and addiction if I don't take him back. I am so frustrated. I really do care about him and in some ways we have a real and very deep connection. But at the same time, he is not solving his own problems like he should be and is not mature enough to relate to me on the same level. I don't want a codepedent relationship like that. So I can't take him back, but this is breaking my heart all over again (albeit I am more desensitized to it now)
Oh, and he is saying he is never going to give up. That he KNOWS we are meant to be together so I might as well just give in.
paradoxical 22-25, F 3 Responses 0 Feb 16, 2008