I Still Talk To My Ex...

It's been almost a year and I still talk to him...
Yea, we attend the same church, with his Dad being the pastor, there's really no way to avoid him unless I moved away...
It's been almost a year and I still get upset when he talks to someone else...
Yea, she's like 20+ years his senior and she has some serious issues, but who am I to judge...
It's been almost a year and I'm still not sure of what I want...
Yea, he ****** me off because of his ways, but because he was my first ever boyfriend, I still have feelings for him...
It's been almost a year, and well, I still talk to my ex...
Yea, he's said for so long that he loves me and that he doesn't want anyone else, but I fear that I have killed any chance of finding true love...
It's been almost a year and I know that I shouldn't, I know that it could very well be wrong, but i still talk to my ex...