I Had An Online "Affair"
This website has brought me so much I could never have expected. I joined because I am in a failing marriage. All things have been tried and we cannot make it work. Others, both men and women, have shared similar stories to mine and I have formed many bonds with them. I am moving forward and I am leaving him. There is much time to get things finalized so I can move on. In the course of sharing my story and writing my feelings I have developed a friendship with another married man in a similar situation. He's like the male version of me. Our chemistry was almost instant. He is not ready to leave his wife but we have definitely started an intense sexual cyber affair over the last month. He has no idea how much I think about him, how much talking to him each day matters to me. He satisfies me in ways I don't think he fully gets. I want so badly for this to be real, not a cyber affair. I am leaving anyway, and if he did, I have to wonder if this could become something real. It is probably just a dream for me. I know in the end, my heart will probably get broken but for now it feels amazing. I never would have imagined getting caught up like this but when you suffer for years in a marriage and someone else truly gets that pain, it really only seems natural that the connection be there. He pleases me, he satisfies me, he makes me feel things I have never felt.