The One That Got Away

it started out as curiosity, and the saying is right "curiosity killed that cat, but cats have 9 lives , so im down to 8 then lol. started as friends online for over 9 months, then out of the blue she traveled out to meet me. It was a special experience. never had that with anyone before. we were very discreet as I am in the military. It lasted 3 moths then i knew her husband was returning.. my heart still is breaking after 5 years apart and when i get a text or a email saying howdy i still get tingles... is this wrong?