By: An EP User
Written on February 10th, 2013
I met this man over a month ago, not intentionally, but through an online interest group that we both share. He messaged me a short hello due to shared interest and immediately responded I'm married lol to which he said something funny about him having to return the ring now and from that we began this never-ending conversation. We e-mailed back and forth (I mean within minutes of receiving the last e-mail) for 2 days straight after this and then we begin to chat on Skype (messenger and webcam - depending on our "availability"). I have been married for 6 years (together for 9) and have 2 children. He is engaged and has a child from a previous marriage and states that he is happy and satisfied with his relationship, and is confused as to the relationship he has formed with me. I am truly captivated and intrigued by this man. I think about him constantly and he has expressed the same to me. We e-mail back and forth and talk on Skype daily sometimes for many hours. We both admit that this "relationship" will never progress from what it is. But we both have also stated how we wish we lived in another world that would allow us to give this thing a real shot. I love my husband but have never really been in love with him. We get along and he is a good man and I don't want to break up my family. My own family growing up was destroyed by an affair, which makes the guilt of what I am doing that much harder. I have definitely developed an emotional attachment to this man. I feel like I am possibly falling in love with him and I believe he shares these same feelings. I am confused as what to do. My head tells me the obvious that I need to stop this now, but for some reason I can't make myself do it. I have never felt such a strong connection with another person. I've never been such an open book with someone and I feel like he is with me too. For some reason I'm not afraid to share the good and the bad that makes me with him. I don't fear "what he will think of me" because I feel 100% accepted by him.. I just feel like he gets me and I him. I am definitely frightened of falling in love with this man because I know only heartbreak can come from that, but I don't know how to stop what I'm doing. I feel like he was meant to be in my life and if my children were older, as crazy as this sounds, I think I would be willing to give up/risk my marriage to explore "this" thing, but I'm not willing to mess up my children's lives due to my selfish needs. Any thoughts on this or has anyone went through something similar?