I Had Crush On Teacher
I never had a crush on teachers before and honestly, I think that having a crush on a teacher is somewhat ewww. I dislike the thought of having a crush on teachers because they're you're mentors, much older and blahh. Not until I met one of my teachers this year. My now: teacher-crush (If you happen to read my previous stories, he's the one I really like but then, Mr. J came into picture :P) At first, I didn't feel anything for him. I just started to really notice him when I realized that his acts & gestures are so similar to that of my crush at that time (a batch mate of mine). I fancied looking at him (my teacher) and his actions solely because it reminds me of my crush (at that time) since he's classrooms away from me.
But then, my feelings for that batchmate of mine soon faded away. I strongly know & believe that my feelings for him are gone. Weeks passed by until one day I realized that I feel something else for my teacher. He's just 4 yrs older than me - I'm 16 & he's 20. I really started to fancy him. Then I started highlighting things about him that I noticed before but chose to ignore like...how perfect his eyebrows are (I swear, i've never seen any eyebrows as perfect as that before - i'm not saying this just bcoz i like him. A lot has also noticed that) and his eyes are so wonderful. Theres just something so nice in it. He's sort of awkward too but that makes him cuter rather than creepy or what. And his gestures are so cute too! He's like shy and embarrassed and also phlegmatic. Plus his voice is unlike any other. It doesn't sound so manly and not too feminine too and his voice is so unique. I really like it when he calls out our section or whenever he speaks.
My friends who also fancy him (but some of them fancy him differently than what i do since they're guys) went on "Instensive Research" about him...or more commonly, stalking (cyber-stalking like through FB) and I really did so well on that and found out a hell lot of informations about him. (My friends even call me 'secret agent') I liked him even more when I found out things about him like he's a scholar, he's really intelligent & friendly, he loves to read books, loves pets and many more. I also read his essays which revealed a lot more about him. I somewhat knew him better when i started doing "Intensive Researches" about him though I'm aware that there's a lot more that i still don't know.
The thing is, we're not really that close. We don't talk to each other that much even as a student-teacher. Unlike my previous teachers to whom I could have jokes with or just act comfortably but still with respect. Or those who could easily approach me and talk to me even about irrelevant non-academic stuffs. In short, we don't have that much interaction and that sucks so much because I don't have much interaction with the teacher who I really like. Well, I was happy when he became my moderator in one of my electives. I could spend extra time with him. :) Maybe we'd get closer...closer even just as student-teacher only. I really wanted to get close to him. My schoolmates could really talk with him about different stuffs and interacts with him well. He even tells them stories about some of his life, job and studies. But we just can't talk about that. :( He makes me feel a lot if different emotions. This is just my first time having a crush on a teacher. But I also know that I should ignore or forget the feelings I have for him bcoz its so inappropriate.
What should I really do now? Pls. give me some advice.
I could barely say "Hi" to him :/ Which really sucks.. :(
I'm aware that he has his flaws and negatives too but despite those, I still like him. :)
I also wanted to be...just comfortable with him
Oh btw, as what I have stated, He just turned 20 last year and I just turned 16. (last year as well) Not much of a big age gap. We've got a lot in common too like tv shows, books and a lot of stuffs but i just can't talk to him about it :( He's also single and If i'm correct, he never had a girlfriend yet. He is straight (if some would wonder) :P
But then, my feelings for that batchmate of mine soon faded away. I strongly know & believe that my feelings for him are gone. Weeks passed by until one day I realized that I feel something else for my teacher. He's just 4 yrs older than me - I'm 16 & he's 20. I really started to fancy him. Then I started highlighting things about him that I noticed before but chose to ignore like...how perfect his eyebrows are (I swear, i've never seen any eyebrows as perfect as that before - i'm not saying this just bcoz i like him. A lot has also noticed that) and his eyes are so wonderful. Theres just something so nice in it. He's sort of awkward too but that makes him cuter rather than creepy or what. And his gestures are so cute too! He's like shy and embarrassed and also phlegmatic. Plus his voice is unlike any other. It doesn't sound so manly and not too feminine too and his voice is so unique. I really like it when he calls out our section or whenever he speaks.
My friends who also fancy him (but some of them fancy him differently than what i do since they're guys) went on "Instensive Research" about him...or more commonly, stalking (cyber-stalking like through FB) and I really did so well on that and found out a hell lot of informations about him. (My friends even call me 'secret agent') I liked him even more when I found out things about him like he's a scholar, he's really intelligent & friendly, he loves to read books, loves pets and many more. I also read his essays which revealed a lot more about him. I somewhat knew him better when i started doing "Intensive Researches" about him though I'm aware that there's a lot more that i still don't know.
The thing is, we're not really that close. We don't talk to each other that much even as a student-teacher. Unlike my previous teachers to whom I could have jokes with or just act comfortably but still with respect. Or those who could easily approach me and talk to me even about irrelevant non-academic stuffs. In short, we don't have that much interaction and that sucks so much because I don't have much interaction with the teacher who I really like. Well, I was happy when he became my moderator in one of my electives. I could spend extra time with him. :) Maybe we'd get closer...closer even just as student-teacher only. I really wanted to get close to him. My schoolmates could really talk with him about different stuffs and interacts with him well. He even tells them stories about some of his life, job and studies. But we just can't talk about that. :( He makes me feel a lot if different emotions. This is just my first time having a crush on a teacher. But I also know that I should ignore or forget the feelings I have for him bcoz its so inappropriate.
What should I really do now? Pls. give me some advice.
I could barely say "Hi" to him :/ Which really sucks.. :(
I'm aware that he has his flaws and negatives too but despite those, I still like him. :)
I also wanted to be...just comfortable with him
Oh btw, as what I have stated, He just turned 20 last year and I just turned 16. (last year as well) Not much of a big age gap. We've got a lot in common too like tv shows, books and a lot of stuffs but i just can't talk to him about it :( He's also single and If i'm correct, he never had a girlfriend yet. He is straight (if some would wonder) :P
By:
Niea65
Age:
18-21
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Female
