Three Years and Counting

I am a 17-year-old girl and I have had a crush on the same teacher for three years. This man was hired to direct our high school band in my sophomore year. From the time I first saw him at the front of the room, I immediately thought he was adorable. He was in his mid 20's, fresh out of college, with messy black hair, glasses, and a crisp new shirt and tie. You could tell by the look on his face how excited he was to be there. It was just too-damn-cute. The more classes I had with him, the more I liked him. He is very sweet and overly-polite, often apologizing profusely and sincerely when he catches himself being even the slightest bit rude, in spite of how rude a person may have been to him to begin with. He is funny, playful, and charming. He is also easily excited, which I also find to be adorable. He is one of the biggest geeks I have ever met, and it makes me so happy. It's also necessary to note that he has one of the nicest, most kissable pairs of lips I have ever seen. They always look so plump and soft. I know for a fact that I start to blush whenever I catch myself staring at his lips. Whenever I'm around him, I do the same damn thing I always do when I'm around a guy I have a crush on; I become insufferably obnoxious. I sit there and crack horrible, inappropriate joke after joke. I also curse like a sailor whenever he hears me mess up on my instrument. I never realize it as I'm doing it, but I feel like such an awkward loser whenever I leave his presence and I have time to reflect on the things I said. My teacher, being the patient person he is, has never given me a detention or written me up, however. That, I'm thankful for. I don't know whether or not he thinks I'm annoying or stupid. He usually just ignores me when I start acting up, but he always says 'hi' to me when he passes me in the hallway (Something that always gets my heart pumping). Also, he also writes that I'm a 'Pleasure to have in class" on progress reports. I guess that's something. I mean, I'm not sitting around hoping that he secretly likes me too...I just hope that I don't annoy the guy too much. Like I said, I have had a crush on this man for three years. Since I have been in band for my entire school career, I have had the pleasure secretly fawning over his geekiness and perfect lips every 5th period for the last three years. I don't know what I'm going to do without him when I graduate. Sorry that this rant was sort of long. I have never told anyone about this crush before.
GoodGoingGal GoodGoingGal
1 Response Jun 18, 2009

I trust you have grown up since writing this!