By Myself

I am my own worst enemy, I shattered all my dreams by negativity and pessimism. I was always afraid to take a chance, I was afraid to do my best. I was afraid of failure.

So here I am, with no hope, and it's my own fault.

LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
36-40, F
20 Responses Mar 28, 2009

I think I feel pretty much like you.<br />
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I had a specific opportunity in my life I feel I have trowed away. Because of my own fear...<br />
Now I don't know what to do, but I would like to believe I have a move I possibly can do so to change my state a little bit.<br />
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What do you think of we two talking a little about our specific questions? Maybe we can help each other. I would do my best to concretely help you in your situation - so you to achieve something as close as possible of wath you - and just you - wish.

@ Steve: I know that, but I guess I like whining!! for things I lost. I am trying baby steps too, it's sometimes hard to keep up the good attitude.

I sometimes do this. I beat myself up for decisions I made or in some cases didn't make. Sure we can all point to something in our lives that could have made a difference. But u know everyone, no matter how successful has failures. That which does not kill us makes us strong. At the lowest point in my life, which is not that long ago, I made a list of things that I COULD do. Trying to work my way through these things gave me a sense of fulfillment and that helped me. Try it. Baby steps

I'll try not to

you shouldn't

Thanks but still I feel guilty

in your case something tells me otherwise

You are right, but I let it happen, I am not sure if I could stop it, but I could have saved a bit.<br />
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Sometimes we are at fault by our own choices.

i doubt you ruined your own dreams i know enough from my own experieces it is rare that aa person can single handedly destroy something is big as a dream no matter how simple

I will, thanks

I agree with christiancowboy. It's never too late. Just go for it...

I always smile when I see your comment, you are full of joy and energy, thank you.

I agree

Thank you LordVoldemort, I truly hope you find yours. No one deserves to feel this way

@ Tulick: doubt that I will be hopeful, or doubt that I ruined my own dreams?<br />
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@ Resem: I can't believe a young man like you has lost hope already! When I find it, which I intend to, I'll send you some.

Hope is a tough thing to come by. I find that I have none myself these days. There are so many things that can never be now because they have been ******** away from me.

somehow i doubt that

@ LP: I sure have to dig, I'll try to find it, thanks<br />
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@ ChristianCowboy: Thanks I'll try that

It's never too late...if you've become more positive, you can achieve it right now...

There is always HOPE. But sometimes you do have to drag out the shovel and dig for it! Hope may seem small or weak, but it is not, it is a tough little booger and can survive almost anything life throws at it. It does hide sometimes b/c it is also wise. :)