Married To A Man, Fell In Love With A WomanI'm so entirely lost right now and hoping to share and hear from others will help.
I'm married to a man who's been away working for some time now and in the midst of this time separation I fell in love with a woman. While I still love my husband, I just don't know if it is the same anymore. He isn't aware of any of this and he isn't in the place where I can tell him because he needs to remain focused for his safety. I've tried to tell him, but it just didn't work.
This is my first time with a girl and the connection we have has been one of the best things in my life. She has opened me like a book and made me feel so comfortable. We are truly happy together up until the last 3 weeks. My husband will be coming home and she has become distant because of it. We still talk on a regular and we still want to share our lives together and be together. I know this is hard for her as well. We shared just about everything together for the last 4 months. My father passed away this week, and it's killing me that she's not here for me like she use to be. She says she is just trying to make this easier. I feel horrible for what I've done to my husband, but being with her has just made me so happy and complete. I know we cannot control who we love, but it is becoming so hard without her presence and support. Any words would be appreciated! Thanks for listening.