At Twelve...I had clearly been watching girls for some time by the age of twelve but this experience is what I sort of imagine as the pivotal point of my life.
I was twelve, parents were out for the night and my regular babysitter was there. It almost didn't happen because she was behind on a school project with a friend but my parents really wanted to go out I guess because they said she and her friend could work on the project at our house and they knew who the other girl was too.
So off I go to bed as usual at 9:00PM and they did their project. I fell asleep but somewhere around 10:30 I woke up again and headed off to the washroom. I heard the TV on in the family room and figured they were done studying, and thinking I'd get a drink I rounded the hall corner.
Can't say I was ready for this but what I saw stopped me dead and I was captivated. My sitter and her girlfriend were making out like fiends, shirts open, jeans undone and hands everywhere. I had seen girls part naked before but never with each other like this. I instantly began to get hot and a little dizzy, and being a bit clutzy I knocked over a lamp trying to steady myself.
Both girls looked at me in horror and I turned and ran down the hall slamming my bedroom door and pulling the covers up over my head.
In a couple minutes my sitter knocked on my door and came in. I stayed covered up. She said her girlfriend had gone home and she was really sorry, she didn't mean for me to see it, and she was really upset that I would tell my parents and they would tell her parents. I didn't really say anything and kept my face covered. I was really embarrassed too.
After another minute she sat at the edge of my bed and said she was so sorry if she upset me and she really liked sitting for me. If everybody found out it would be a big mess. I lowered the blanket and told her I wasn't going to tell. Really? And I nodded yes. Then her whole body relaxed and she started telling me about how she met this girl and even though she dated boys, they would fool around here and there.
I listened to her talk for a bit and then asked her what's it like. She looked at me funny and said What? Kissing a girl, what's it like, I mean not just a kiss but kissing like you did. Now she got a little akward again and said Well I like it.
Can I try it?
me she said...I'm 17 and you're 12. I think there's rules.
I want to I said and I promise I won't tell anyone. Please just one time.
Ok she said but just once and then I'll leave your room.
Great I said as I bounced up on my bed. But you gotta do it the way you did with her.
She reached down and stroked the hair from my cheek and then leaned in and tilted her head towards me. So I did the same and our lips met. It was really soft and gentle. After a minute I felt her lips part and her tongue brushing mine. I open my mouth some and she found her way between my lips. We kissed, her tongue dancing across mine, for a few minutes and my body was on fire.
She stood up and said good night sweetie. You go back to bed and I'll see you next time your parents want me. She walked out, shut my door and my hands stayed between my legs for the rest of the night.
It was my first real kiss and it was perfect.