Recovering From My Heartbreak

Last year in may 2009 i met a guy i talk to him on the net first and then met him on may15th ,i really liked the way he talked to me on the net when i met him he was charming and i felt good around him,i didn't know i was going to end up loving him it was something that just came out of no where i developed strong feelings for him,the first 2 months of us going together were great i felt like i was on cloud nine,he would say how much he loved me and missed me,after 3 months of seeing him i caught him chatting up a girl and leaving his number and saying to the girl if it sex you wont heres my number and i found out other things about him which he had lied about one was he was suppose to be a security guard and turned out not to be one,every time i saw him he was in uniform,also he kept me a secret from his friends and family, to him he would say i, am his girlfriend ,to his family and friends i was just his friend,when i found out all these things about him i started feeling down and not good about myself i had hard time sleeping when it came to a end it was very hard on me it felt like a part of me died i started thinking why this happened when i was being good,loyal i did everything right i gave my all to it he just took and i felt like he let me down so much he was the first guy i loved like that i had other relationships but i seemed to really love this one differently more intense it was i had feelings for him that i just didn,t have for anyone elsewhat made it even harder to get over was finding out he was,nt the person he said he was,it came to a end in august it wasnt a very long relationship it was something that turned my world upside down,i am still recovering from it,i try to keep busy there are times when i miss that first part of him,i don,t miss the bad parts,i still have trouble sleeping i get abit lonely i wont love in my life and a chance to be happy with a nice guy i think about that often,,my self esteem is low which i need to work on i don,t have many girlfriends to talk to about stuff or have a coffee with,i probably don,t go out as much as i did before i met him cause i worry that i might run into the guy it has been 6 months since it ended i still feel i haven,t got over it all yet,so thats my story.

sunrise34 sunrise34
31-35, F
3 Responses Feb 10, 2010

yea he was a man who did not know how to appreciate what a good, and wonderful woman, you are, that happen to me, as well in late march, i fell head over heels, for this guy i thought he might be the one for me, but it turn out he was using me because i was to sweet, and that he was forcing himself to be with me, he was talking to other girls, and ill be a dumb girl just being with him, he broke up with, and i told him dont call me dont look for me, dont message me, i told him that, in astonished he was that i was going to be his friend, i love him dearly and it was the hardest thing to do, that i did, was forgive him for everything and i wished him the best, ive suffered couple months, but i got myself into school and programs, n i have so much confidence in myself i gained, i learned alot about myself, iam one wonderful beautiful confident woman, that he was not man to handle me, have some confidence in yourself, some courage, he is not the first nor the last, through pain , comes happiness, that all depends on you, wether you let fo or not, , dont let him get to you, iam 19 n my little brother even told me, and it has stuck to me ever since, you suffer because you wish to, not because you have, to is all mental hope this help

yea he was a man who did not know how to appreciate what a good, and wonderful woman, you are, that happen to me, as well in late march, i fell head over heels, for this guy i thought he might be the one for me, but it turn out he was using me because i was to sweet, and that he was forcing himself to be with me, he was talking to other girls, and ill be a dumb girl just being with him, he broke up with, and i told him dont call me dont look for me, dont message me, i told him that, in astonished he was that i was going to be his friend, i love him dearly and it was the hardest thing to do, that i did, was forgive him for everything and i wished him the best, ive suffered couple months, but i got myself into school and programs, n i have so much confidence in myself i gained, i learned alot about myself, iam one wonderful beautiful confident woman, that he was not man to handle me, have some confidence in yourself, some courage, he is not the first nor the last, through pain , comes happiness, that all depends on you, wether you let fo or not, , dont let him get to you, iam 19 n my little brother even told me, and it has stuck to me ever since, you suffer because you wish to, not because you have, to is all mental hope this help

Not sure if this helps, but the guy you can't get over is really just an insecure little boy who does not know much about love nor what he wants. There are good guys out there and you will find one if you give it a shot. If you run into <br />
'old buddy" just say hi as if nothing happened. Smile at him and think to yourself "F#%&* you ol' buddy"!