Was This a Nervous Break Down?

 My son was born June 17th. Ever since that day he has been the sunshine of my days. All i do i do for him and i do it alone. My boyfriend is not cut out to be daddy. He's only 17 and he's no ready to give up fun yet so that leaves me to do everything. For the past 2 months I've been doing the best job as a mom that a 17 year old can do. Sometimes its hard but i feel like its all worth it when i see my little baby smile. His happiness is everything to me. But today i snapped. i didn't even know anything was building up until i exploded. I was walking home from the park and i just couldn't go anymore. My body stopped working i shut down on the street corner. It was hot, the baby was crying, i felt overwhelmed and i just couldn't do it anymore. I fell to the ground and cried i was shaking and breathing erratically. In my brain i kept trying to snap myself out of it but i couldn't. i felt so crazy i didn't know what to do. and all i could think was i have to stop get up get home get up get home stop crying stop it!! but i couldn't. Now i look back and feel like a nut job. What is wrong with me?

purplelovesfever purplelovesfever
18-21, F
1 Response Aug 15, 2009

Nothing's wrong with you. If you have post-partum, you should tell your doctor and ask what he/she recommends. If you're not breastfeeding perhaps there's some medication that might help, or if not then at the very least I would recommend counselling. At the very least, if you think you do have post-partum, then you owe it to your baby to do something about it. There's help out there. :)<br />
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If your boyfriend isn't being involved with your child's life, maybe you could try getting child support from him?