Cheating Sex And Sex With My CousinMy vice though is that even though I’m in a good relationship, I do like the buzz of cheating. In my case, when I cheat it’s for those reasons, the sex can be great but actually it’s just a small part. It’s the buzz of doing what you’re not supposed to be doing. My relationship is good and yes, I shouldn’t be doing it, and I always make sure I would never be caught, 50% for self protection and 50% to stop my gf from getting hurt and I would never be with someone where I thought they wouldn’t be able to do that or perhaps expect more from it! Texting 2 people with the same message is fun and a few times we even had the others on the phone chatting… unaware of what was going on …amazing thrill.
Some people get the thrill from action sports or parachute jumps etc, but for me the thrill of doing what your not supposed to be doing. I was with my cousin once. Just like cheating I did it for the same thrill of doing something you are not supposed to be doing. That’s the way with my and my cousin, she is very similar minded to me. We went out for a drink one night and had been opening up to each other / chatting… as had happened before came back to my place and chatted. At some point we gradually realised there was more than a buzz in the air…. The rush at even the thoughts of what may be in her mind and mind was like an adrenalin free fall… those moments were like living in another universe. The anticipation that led up to the casual touch and lightest of hints back and forth, wondering were we both thinking the same…. To say it was such a thrill is a huge understatement. And that moment of the initial hand touch, the crossed border, that slightest of infractions was like a boom of emotions never before even considered… all I could think was this is wrong and that just pulled me and my cousin further and further in… our first kiss, the stopping for a few seconds to ask should we do this… was like moving from 1D black and white to 3D Colour and eventually I stopped and stood up and held her hand as we walked to my bedroom… that alone was a mind blowing and I wish today I could experience even part of that rush of that short walk. The usual things physically guys and girls do seemed to be electrostatic and I’m sure if Id been a single guy who met her as just some random person in a night club it would have been no where near that.
I think one day it may possibly happen again… but it will be natural and evolve. Everything is great between us and we talk openly about our relationships and so on. I wouldn’t change it for the world, Experience Project has allowed me to tell a story I have longed to tell, not brag, but just connect and say how great cheating is and likewise with my cousin. It is great to share! So I don’t look for consolation or guilt or force doubt. I Embrace it and enjoy the experience!
I would love to hear from people who experience the same.
Please don’t bother replying with moralising comments. If this is not for you… Fine!
But if you truly understand what I’m talking about please get in touch!and
Palettes 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 Apr 7, 2011