I Did It.

I am in a relationship with him now. I have thought about him and secretly loved him for months, unwilling to believe my feelings were returned. They were.

The first time I actually told him I loved him wasn't so nice though. I am a person who is very careful with those words; I know what power they have and how much they can hurt you. But he suffers from depression and trauma's from his childhood, and that day.. it was just awful. He was crying -which is not something I thought I would ever see him do- and kept asking me why I was staying with him while he was such a mess. Why I was being so great to him. I told him 'I don't know. Because I love you I guess.' 

It seemed to have a very big impact. He calmed down afterwards, remained silent for a long time. It seems to have a big meaning to him.

JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente
18-21, F
3 Responses Sep 27, 2008

wow :) i have a lot of respect for you. he is one lucky guy!

so happy it worked out for you both. I just had some one tell me he finally got the nerve to tell his best friend he was in love with her and her reply was" You know you are not good looking enough!". Imagine that....i thought he was better off without such a shallow person! But it still hurt him quite a lot and yes he stayed friends with her but i can see how it damaged him.<br />
so yes you were very brave and very lucky! Love is so wonderful!

way to go. that takes a lot of courage. I wish I had that courage sometimes.