Today was probably one of the hardest days of my life. I had to give my 10 month old weenie away & it broke my heart into pieces. I loved him like a mother would love their child. I can't have children & he was my baby.

I've live with my grandmother & she is getting too old & in poor health to watch my dog while I'm away for a few days at a time. My fiancé lives 2 hours away & we are moving in together soon & our home doesn't allow pets... I asked everyone I knew if they could watch him for a while until we found some place better, but no one could...

My grandmother watched him for as long as she could, but she couldn't do it any longer because where he was still a pup, he would want to play & be rough & she couldn't do that. I held off on it as long as I could because I hate to see him go. But I knew it had to be done for my grandmas sake...

Luckily I found a really nice lady who had 2 other dogs he could play with. I was okay when she was at our house & she was talking to us about her dogs & she showed me pictures of them to make me feel a little better. She acted like she would take very good care of him, & I was really glad we found someone great.

But when it was time for her to take him, I completely lost it & started crying my eyes out. I picked him up & carried him to her car & kissed him goodbye one last time. I haven't cried that hard in a very long time. It broke my heart into pieces... He knew something was up & he started crying too. When they drove off, he was looking at me with his big eyes & still crying... I felt like someone was stomping on my heart.

I broke down once I got back into the house. Even now, 14 hours later I'm still crying. I called her later on in the day & asked how he was doing & she told me him & the 2 other dogs were getting along just great & she loved having him... Lucky her, right?

He meant so much to me... When I had my miscarriage, he stayed right by my side & didn't leave. When I was sick, he would lay with me the whole time. & when I was sad or cry, he would lick my face just to cheer me up. He was my baby & I can only hope & pray he loves his new home...

I hope I made the right decision. I just hope he's really happy...

I love you lil weenie<3

Has anyone had experience like this? Will this pain in my heart ever go away?
Wvgirl20 Wvgirl20
22-25, F
Aug 28, 2014