Fatty For Life- Anabulimia And Food Addiction

As someone who suffers from anabulimia, I have a love/hate relationship with food. It destroys my body, it f**ks with my mind. It gives me momentary release from pain in the form of binges, than hurts me again through purging/laxatives/overexercise/fasts/restriction. Even a minimal weight gain makes me want to jump off a cliff or else starve myself until I'm dead. But then it is there again when I am lonely or hurting or depressed. I hate hate hate hate hate food. I wish I didn't need it. I wish I could exist off of pure willpower and never eat another morsel again. 

MyWorldIntheDrain MyWorldIntheDrain
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 3, 2010

I Feel you