Life Ruiner.

Being a people pleaser has almost ruined my life countless times in my 20 years on earth. I don't believe I have the desire to please people because I am a good person, but I do believe I have a great anxiety when it comes to rejection. My self esteem has also played a big part as I have none.

I stayed in a toxic and physically abusive relationship throughout my high school years because I was afraid of breaking his diabetic and suicidal heart. The kid not only hurt me, but he would cut himself for attention. He reminded me a lot of myself when I had a great desire for friends and attention above anything else. I always came up withto excuses for him. I pretended to be happy when he wasnt being such a psycho because much like me, no one else loved him. In my mind i needed to atleast try. So I stayed for nearly four miserable years. Just to have someone on my arm. Just to make this diabetic boy, this lost soul, happy.

Im done with being a people pleaser. I will never kiss another persons *** as long as I live. I will always put the happiness of others above my own, but never to such an extent. Never again.
eatontowngirlxo eatontowngirlxo
18-21, F
May 11, 2012