Another Year Cramped By Depression And Loneliness.

Anyone ever say, "I no what you're going through" or "I understand"? I'm sure more we have all heard it more than once. Well, I'm 31 years old and have had to hear it for 15 miserable years. I have never spent the holidays with anyone but family, which is fine, but having the companionship of another would be great. The past 4 years have been really hard because I have lost my job several times, due to companies down sizing, and I am currently unemployed (since September) which resulted in me having been evicted from my apartment and being forced to live with my folks. If I didn't have my dog I would be living out of my car. Don't get me wrong...I'm fortunate that my parents took me in, but a 31 year old man should not have to. This holiday season is going to be the worst ever. I have no girlfriend (never had one), no job, no money, no friends, and well... It just sucks. I don't even go walk around places because it just make me sick to see people all affectionate, holding hands, and hugging, and all the other crap that goes along with it. I get depressed around the holidays and angry. I hate being alone during this time of year even more than any other day.
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1 Response Dec 11, 2012

Hi gps12,

One thing that annoys the hell out of me is when people say "I understand" or "I know what you are going through", when you know damn well they have no clue. Don't tell me you understand when you have never experienced what I am going through.

I can honestly say, gps12, that I do understand what you are going least most of it. I don't like with my parents, but I too hate being alone for the Holidays. Actually, it's not just this time of the year, it's any of those holidays where people are having "fun". Since I have no friends, I have no one to have "fun" with and it just grinds my beans to see people laughing and carrying on. You just want to take a bucket of water and toss it at them. :-)

Ok, now that I got that out of my system. My depression gets much worse from November 1st through January 1st. After that I can go back to some "normalcy" in my life....until Valentine's Day!!!!! Now I know why they call it the Valentine's Day massacre.

Just know that I do truly understand.