Being Alone Too Much Is Not Good.
I have been single for over a year. Most of my family dislikes my lesbian lifestyle so they do not invite me over for the holidays or birthday celebrations. My mom passed away one day after Thanksgiving, last year. The past two years has been really tough on me because i have had to start over by going to school to learn a new trade so i can start a new career. Not much fun for someone at 45 years of age.
I was alone last Christmas, I was alone this Thanksgiving and it looks like I will be alone for Christmas this year as well. I get up every morning and go to school, then come home where i stay until the next day when i go to school. I watch television and talk to my basset hound dog named Isabella. I never leave the house unless it is to go to school. I know this is not healthy but it is all i can do right now, because i don't have a job and the money is very low, so all i can afford to do is sit and stare at the four walls all the time. It has been this way for about 3 months now. I know that i am depressed but there is nothing that can be done for me right now.
I love a wonderful woman that i cannot be with. she lives in Georgia and has her own life over there. I would like for one time for things to go my way and that I could get back on my feet and also to be with the woman I love. I would like nothing more than to have her in my arms for the holidays. However, for now, All I can do is dream.