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Only 8 Weeks

Everyone's so far ahead... I'm only 8 weeks and I cannot even begin to fathom 20-30 weeks onwards. I'm 25 I thought it was the right age to get pregnant but really if it were up to me I would've waited till I was almost 30 but nobody was having THAT. I feel soooo powerless and bossed around. It's my damn body. Get your own uterus. Don't meddle with mine. Anyway, this is my first and last. If this pregnancy doesn't make it... I'm not about to start over, no sir. It's over. I'm getting industrial strength IUD or tubal litigation or better yet pretend to have developed fibroids and have a hysterectomy. I'll pretend anything. I need to figure out a plan on how to overcome pressure to have a second child. Any ideas? :) I cannot cite depression/mood disorder/medication as an excuse coz these are dense people I am dealing with. They don't understand mental disorders. And honestly, you couldn't. Not unless you have experienced it yourself or seen it firsthand in a parent or a sibling. Someone you had to live with. Plus I live in a country where the laymen have never heard of any of these disorders. In 20 years time they'll only be going through the "have heard but it's a stigma" stage. I live amongst fools. Save me.
turquesa turquesa 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 26, 2011

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Thank you for the comment :) I like the part about 3 being a good number and having a daughter. I was thinking only a boy would work for me coz I'm not such a good example of a strong woman for a daughter to model after you know. I went to see my psych today. The depression had started to get ugly. And I feel better somehow after I let it all out. I actually expressed the notion of wanting to end the pregnancy. That would never be allowed round these parts so that helped in a weird way. Maybe I'm relieved it's NOT an option. Because that means I will have to work on the problematic areas of my life. And I got my deal of just one kid. So I think I feel more in control now. That was the problem. I was mad because I was in control of nothing. And yes, I will get an IUD after delivery and use condoms on top of that. :) Good luck with ur pregnancy! :)

Hmmm...where to start? I always imagined that had I done this at your age, it would have been a lot easier, but it sounds like I would have hated it then too. All I can tell you is that three is a great family number. I loved just being my husband, my daughter and myself. We ended up getting pregnant by accident, and while it is lovely to know that I will have another baby (which is a lot of fun), I am horrified by the next 32 weeks ahead (yes, I'm about eight weeks too!). I am much older than you, but I am equally infuriated by having to go through this awful experience again. My advice would be to secretly get your tubes tied or have an IUD placed inside. Don't feel forced to have another baby. However, as someone who just got pregnant on the pill, I can just say, prepare yourself for the fact that you can always get pregnant again. Good luck (and I hope it all works out - you'll see, the baby part is actually fine!) - you can be sure I am going through all of this at the same time as you.

Hmmm...where to start? I always imagined that had I done this at your age, it would have been a lot easier, but it sounds like I would have hated it then too. All I can tell you is that three is a great family number. I loved just being my husband, my daughter and myself. We ended up getting pregnant by accident, and while it is lovely to know that I will have another baby (which is a lot of fun), I am horrified by the next 32 weeks ahead (yes, I'm about eight weeks too!). I am much older than you, but I am equally infuriated by having to go through this awful experience again. My advice would be to secretly get your tubes tied or have an IUD placed inside. Don't feel forced to have another baby. However, as someone who just got pregnant on the pill, I can just say, prepare yourself for the fact that you can always get pregnant again. Good luck (and I hope it all works out - you'll see, the baby part is actually fine!) - you can be sure I am going through all of this at the same time as you.