So Sick

I seriously can't take it anymore. It's ridiculous, why do people think they can walk all over me? What is it about me in particular that leads people to believe they can take me for granted?

Sometimes I honestly wish I wasn't so giving/caring. I'm not trying to act like I'm some amazing gracious person, but I do the best I can. I try and I give all that I can. People seem to expect it from me at this point.

I watch my nephew while my sister works. This ends up being about 40-50 hrs a week that I have him. I don't get paid to watch him. I love my nephew, and I love my sister and I am happy to help her out with him, but when you don't pay me a dime, I take him overnight all the time, I buy him all his food for my house and I drive him places and take him places all the time, don't be rude to me about anything else I do! I watch another girl overnights and most the time my nephew gets picked up before I have to be there, except Wednesdays. On Wednesdays my sister has to drive an extra 5 miles to pick him up and she makes me feel like crap about it. She makes me feel like it's so ridiculous for her to have to go there and get him. I do so much for her! Why is it that the one thing I have to do, she gets so mad at me for it?

My sister and I have had a rocky relationship for years and I have always felt like I have to be careful what I say around her because I don't want her to blow up and be pissed off at me. So I don't know how to confront her about any of this. I don't know how to say anything because I don't want her to blow up on me. So I just deal with it, but how long can a person deal with something before they break?

She takes such advantage of me, expecting SO much of me and giving nothing in return. I love my nephew and I love taking care of him but when I do so much why can't she just be happy and thankful and leave me along about the stupid 5 extra miles?

My sister isn't the only one. I'm at my breaking point with people, and of course it's all my own fault because I don't say anything about it. I can't take people being mad, I can't take people yelling at me so I just freaking take it and post on a website where nobody I know will ever read it about how sick of it I am. Awesome way to solve my problems right? I just wish I had someone willing to do so much for me, like I am willing to do for everyone else in my life.
mandi2590 mandi2590
22-25, F
Sep 12, 2012