My Mother Died Of Breast Cancer Today.

Everyone says this but today the world truly did loose one of the most amazing women it has ever been graced with.

 My mom was 49 years old and died 4 months before my wedding. She will never meet her grandchildren, walk me down the isle, laugh, love, cry, or hold me ever again. My mom only had breast cancer for a year and 6 months before it ravaged her body and rendered the women whom I most look up to completely defeated. 

  What I hate more is how strong she was and how she never once stopped smiling. How she had to be so brave and strong for something that never should have happened in the first place. I don't believe that it's better this way because she's not suffering. What would be better for her would be to be healthy and with her loving family.

  I do not associate my mother with cancer, it was the most miniscule part of her life. My mother was a beautiful intelligent and strong woman who was so much more than a pink ribbon. My mother was not the creature in pain who could not walk or speak that cancer turned her into the last weeks of her life.

drake10 drake10
22-25, F
1 Response May 10, 2012

I'm very sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is. Everything is very fresh and raw with you right now. The first few months will be kinda numb. You probably feel like you will never be able to stop crying but eventually it will subside. There is nothing wrong with crying tho. You will never get over the emptiness feeling but over time we just somehow manage to function in life without them. Hold your memories close and feel free to add me if you'd like to talk sometime. Try and keep your chin up, I know its hard.. take care..