I Hate Cancer
I hate Cancer. I have throughout my life, which I am only 27 so not that old. Lost so many loved ones to this terrible disease. When I was in elementary school, one of my best friends moms found out she had cancer, Lukemia to be exact. She survived the cancer but had to have a trach put in to help her breath because of it. Years later she died from pnumonia, cause from a bacterial infection due to that trach. When I 11 I lost my aunt (my dad's oldest sister) to Breast Cancer. She died after having gone through Kemo 3 times and going into a coma. It was a very confusing and painful for the child I was; because I didn't understand what was going on. Then when I was 19 another good friend of mines mother passed from Cancer. My friends mother had lost a leg to Cancer when she was 18 and lived her life in a wheelchair, to years later be told she had cancer on her other leg and they wanted to amputate that leg as well. She said no she had had enough and they weren't taking her other leg. She died a week later. Yet another of my best friends mothers found out she had Ovarian cancer when we were in Junior high, she went through treament and went into remission. When I turned 20 her mother found out the cancer had come back, but it was too late. She died 2 months later. Finally my other Aunt (my dad's youngest sister) found out she had Cancer when I was 23, by the time I turned 24, even with Kemo, they found out that it had spread to her brain, her lungs, and her liver. She died last June. I miss her still. She was so very strong. They all were. Strong of heart and mind. None of them showed their fear in the face of their death sentences. They were the bravest women I have ever known, the kindest and the most generous. I love them and will never forget any of them, but I hate the killer sickness that took them from us too early. I am putting a song here for them. Some of you may know it some of you may not. But you will understand if you have ever lost anyone to this terrible fate. This song is called Tough and is sung by the country singer Craig Morgan. Here it is:
She’s in the kitchen at the crack of dawn
Bacon’s on, coffee’s strong
Kids running wild, taking off their clothes
If she’s a nervous wreck, well it never shows
Takes one to football and one to dance
Hits the Y for aerobics class
Drops by the bank, stops at the store
Has on a smile when I walk through the door
The last to go to bed, she’ll be the first one up
And I thought I was tough
Chorus
She’s strong, pushes on, can’t slow her down
She can take anything life dishes out
There was a time
Back before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
We sat there five years ago
The doctors let us know, the test showed
She’d have to fight to live, I broke down and cried
She held me and said it’s gonna be alright
She wore that wig to church
Pink ribbon pinned there on her shirt
No room for fear, full of faith
Hands held high singing Amazing Grace
Never once complained, refusing to give up
And I thought I was tough
Chorus
She’s strong, pushes on, can’t slow her down
She can take anything life dishes out
There was a time
Back before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
She’s a gentle word, the sweetest kiss
A velvet touch against my skin
I’ve seen her cry, I’ve seen her break
But in my eyes, she’ll always be strong
There was a time
Back before she was mine
When I thought I was tough
