I Hate The After Effects Of Child Abuse!

Well I was 8 when it all started and now I'm 22 and a survivor of child abuse. The only thing is that I carry around a lot of baggage like flashbacks, nightmares, trouble in relationships, etc. Due to the extra baggage that I carry around, I cut to get rid of the pain and guilt that surrounds that. I have cut for nearly 10 years now and I get people asking me why haven't I stopped yet. My answer usually isn't much because I don't really know how to answer that. I mean I like to cut but my experience in the past in telling them that is that they don't like to hear that and they start telling me that I need to stop and they will do anything to make me stop. But what a lot of people who aren't cutters don't understand that a cutter will find something where ever they are if they really want to cut.