I Hate Kids, Expecially Babies!

I was given up for adoption as a baby and adopted when I was only 10 months old.  I never felt much love from my adoptive parents.  I would wake up from horrible dreams where my parents had left me.  I noticed my dislike for children at a very young age, maybe around 6 or 7.  I can remember my best friend, who lived next door, always wanted to go play with a neighborhood toddler.  I never went along and told my friend that she could have all the fun she wanted with those little snots as long as I didn't have to go along. 

I never babysat for children as a teenager nor wanted to.  By the time I was 17, I was married.  I did watch some young children as a part-time job, but I detested it.  I didn't last long.

I had my first child at 18 and my second one at 21.  I must have been out of my mind.  While they were small I only did what I had to do.  I didn't have any love or fondness for either of them.  As they grew older, I did lose some of this distaste, and often had fun with them.  But, given the option, I'd never do it again.  My children are 45 & 42 respectively.  I have 7 grandchildren.  I've only watched one of them, and she was 9 before I did.  I still do not like babies!  They are screaming, squalling, poop machines.  All I want to do when they start screaming is smack the crap out of them.  I cannot stand the crying.  angry

I'd save a dog from drowning before I'd save a child.  I know I'm not normal, and often people look at me strangely when I confess my feelings for babies and toddlers.  I have NO idea why I feel this way.  I often wonder if something terrible happened to me in the orphanage. 

dianekay1946 dianekay1946
2 Responses Jul 13, 2010

Oh it is SO nice to read these posts! I feel like such a freak sometimes feeling little connection to my parent's siblings and nieces. Thankfully I never had children as likely would have felt the same. I do much MUCH love dogs!

Ms dianekay, I find nothing wrong with your story or with you hating kids. I may don't understand why your real parents give you up, but I'm sure where ever they are, the are the ones who suffering. I have 2 kids, and to be honest i don't really feel that close to them either. Even sometimes i wish i could take it all back to when i never had kids. You have a good good reason why you hate them. The 2 i have are the only one I'm going to have, theres no damn way i would ever have another. People need to really learn that God put us on this earth to do more than just spread children everywhere, it's more to life than that. That is way I had my tudes tide, because i was'nt going to base my life with a house full of headaches in the furture.