No Maternal Instincts Whatsoever
i am a girl in my late teens, but i have never had an "i want a baby" stage (which many of my friends are going through right now and makes me want to vomit), i don't babysit, i don't find children to be cute (with a few notable exceptions -- generalizations tend to leave someone out), i don't like playing with them, i don't want to hold your baby (i'd rather drop it than let it throw up on me), i don't want to be a mother, i don't want to experience giving birth, i don't want to have children so that someone will love me or so that someone will care for me in my old age (those are terribly selfish reasons to have children), i don't feel that i owe the world anything because i was born or because i have received an education or because i was raised by someone as my family constantly reminds me. the best thing i can do to repay the world is not introduce more children into the northern hemisphere where the level of consumption is the greatest.
this is how i feel. it is a legitimate opinion. it's not "terrible" and it's not "mean" and it's not "selfish". i am terribly offended that maternal behavior or attitudes should be expected of me because i'm a young female. perhaps it's simply my environment or associates, or perhaps it is the norm and i'm simply not "femenine" enough, but the notion that i SHOULD somehow desire children upsets me. i don't, and i doubt that i ever will, and i resent the widespread conviction that i'll "change my mind someday", or worse, that i'll change my mind "when i meet the right man".
it makes me want to break things.