Every Year This Time Makes Me Feel Suicidal/depressed
it just does. theres something about it. first theres all the horrible dark gloomy freezing cold nights. when i was a child there was always arguments at xmas between family members & it scared me. then twice me & my ex broke up at xmas/ the last time for good. i remember listening storys about houses burning down at xmas & i think the whole thing is spirited with evil somewhere along the line. then theres all the false behaviour from people being nice when theyre really horrible the rest of the time. then theres the annoying side of it like all the stupid advertisements/commercials & if thats not worse then theres the evil music thats the same every year "when the snowman brings the snow" & " its christmas time theres no need to be afraid" well im afraid there is a need to be afraid. after all that i hear about how many people end up with food poisoning every year from turkeys & then theres always someone who doesnt appreciate what you got them anyway.