No-one Left To Share It With

I hate chirstmas. I hated it since in 1996 I buried my brother on Xmas Eve. 3 years later my mum died, then my best friend, her husband, and then 3 years ago my dad.

I never had the chance of children after having IVF twice that never worked. Apart from my husband (who I love dearly), there is no-one left for me to be excited with over xmas and the whole 'family' aspect of it.

Sad is how I feel at xmas, that I only ever think of what was in the past. But I will smile on the day, make xmas dinner, sit with my husband and toast those we love wherever they are.

Still hate it though :(
gail460 gail460
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Dec 9, 2012