The Bane Of My Existence

My name is Brandon and I have been getting cold sores ever since I could consciously remember. How I got the virus? I do not know, but I have to say having it has really changed my entire life, literally. The reason I say this is because I just realized how much cold sores control my life, when I have a break out my life completely shuts down for the two weeks it's on my face. It's been especially hard to deal with now, since I'm in college. After the first week, I've now missed about a good 2 weeks of classes since the start of the spring semester. Because for some reason these viruses have chosen this exact moment in my life to attack. I started college last summer, had one small breakout during the summer semester, spent the entire fall semester without one breakout. Then went home for the winter break, had a breakout, which I could explain because going home for such a long break and having to deal with some family issues it was truly stressful, but what I don't get is why I got another breakout a week after getting back to school, that lasted a week and a half or so. Then I got another breakout, the worse one I had ever had, it was on my lower and upper lip at the same time, it looked horrible. I'm in college and part of being in college is meeting people, and socializing, which is something I love, but what do you do when you have the worse cold sore attack of your life. After dealing with that which lasted about 2 weeks, imagine everyone who sees you for two weeks can see the cold sores on your face, it's embarrassing. Yesterday was my first day truly free, because my lips were done healing, and the scars were almost nonexistent. I thought that was the end of it for a while, but I thought wrong, this afternoon, I noticed that there would be an outbreak at my top right lip, all I'm thinking now, is how depressed I allow myself to get when I have breakouts, and how big the outbreak will get. I think I know why I'm getting this one, I spent a long time in the sun the other day playing sports, and it's been really cold in my area for a few days now, which resulted in my lips getting really dry. I can't bare not going to class for another two weeks, I've chosen not to go to class before, but not because I'm too embarrassed to show my face in public. Worst part is I party a lot, and hang out with a pretty large circle, and if anything is social suicide it's having cold sores.
bradlee21 bradlee21
18-21, M
2 Responses Feb 5, 2013

I feel ya. I'm about to graduate with my BA and nearly every semester started with a cold sore. Having to meet new people, and every one of them trying not to look at your mouth. I've skipped classes, called in sick to work, avoided meeting friends, tried to cover it with layers of lipstick (which I'm guessing you haven't tried, doesn't work anyway). But you know that, for the majority of new people you meet, their entire impression of you is reduced to a cold sore. I'm sorry if this isn't pleasant. I just woke up with one this morning and am feeling pretty dark. Thank you for sharing

i use poly sporion triple healing (soon as it: tingles ,itches, goes red) but i put a lots on like a big glob mositure helps also if it rlly hurts use the 1 wit nova cane and idont get break outs BUT ONLY IF I CATCH IT ON TIME.....dont beat ur self up bout it u didnt ask 2 have it right none of us did