Lonely Freshman And No Hope For The FutureSo I'm a college freshman (just started my second semester) and I have never been more unhappy in my life.
First of all, my roommate is a freak! She has severe depression and OCD, which results in constant and extreme mood swings and her sleeping 18-22 hours a day. And no I'm not exaggerating on that she goes to classes and literally sleeps the rest of the day. Once she even slept (or lied in bed) for 40 hours straight! It can get a little annoying when I have to leave my room at 2 in the afternoon to do homework because she insist on having the lights out when shes asleep. She also has a problem with personal hygiene - she washes her clothes once every month and a half and takes a shower about once every two week., which creates and unbearable smell in our tiny room. However, because of her depression and mood swings I cannot tell her anything without her reading into it as a personal assault, taking great offense, pitching a fit about it and complaining about it for weeks to come. Moreover, because she does nothing but sleep and go to class, she has no friends, literally zero. Which means that she is in our room constantly. And I know that it is our room so we need to share it, but I think that my asking for a little time alone in our room is not an unreasonable request. She thinks differently, having taken offense to and refused my suggestions.
So besides the roommate issue, I hate the people of college in general. Sure I go to a private school, so I should expect some rich snobby preppy and spoiled kids. But to have the whole student body comprised of the most irritating, closed minded, stuck up, cliquy kids was a surprise. Everyone comes here and within the first week as a set group of friends, and it is impossible to break into one. So, I am alone.
I miss everything about my home. I miss my friends and my parents and just plain normal people who don't judge someone because they don't have a million dollar trust fund. If I could I would want to transfer closer to home, but that would just be humiliating to tell my parents that I failed at living away from home and that I want to come back.
But the worst part about all of this is that it seems like no one feels the same way as I do. Literally NO ONE. Everyone here is having fun and has friends, all my friends from high school have friends and I am alone, which makes me feel like its my fault that I'm such a loser. I just need someone to understand me, someone to relate to me.