Do I Really Hate It???I love biology and nature, and as far as i remember i've always loved it, so right now im studying biology at university. Im halfway through and i think i really hate it :O i dont know what to do!! classes are soooo boring, i cant pay attention for more than 15 minutes; waking up every morning feels like a burden, i dont go to school because i like it, i go because i know i have to go; i dont enjoy my lessons; i study but i dont learn, i just memorize, and i pass because i study one day before my test, not all semester long; i spend all day at school because of my schedule and i get home so tired i dont feel like doing homework or studying IM SO FED UP, i dont know if im overloaded because of al the homework and all the time that i spend at school or i really hate biology lessons :S. Besides that, I dont have any friends at school, ive tried to make friends but im shy so it just wont work, people dont seem to like me, they dont seem interested in spending time with me, its just like whenever peolple are hanging out with me, just are arround me because they dont have anyone better to be with; i spend all day long walking alone down the aisles, i dont have anyone to talk to, i eat alone all the time and i hate it!!! im so shy and i think people see me as boring and quiet so they dont welcome me to their social groups. Worse of all is i have this huge crush on a super cute boy, but im so f***ing introverted i never talk to him and i guess hates me, because he always says hi to all the girls in my class but never says hi to me :( oh gosh, theres no way i could ever talk to that cutie, i get so nervous arround him
gooosh!!!! i totally hate my life! theres nothing else that i love more than animals, plants, dna, proteins, etc, so i think biology should be right for me, then, why am i feeling like crap at university????????????? why cant i make friends if i try my best???????